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EclairReturns posted...

Whenever I try to relax and think of nothing, I can't help but think of my past. And when I think of my past, I recover memories that I've subconsciously repressed because it caused me too much distress when the event actually happened. But now that I remember these repressed memories, I cannot help but just replay these memories over and over in my head, all the while freaking out silently. Should I ask a therapist about this?

Additionally, when I think of this Japanese broadcaster guy who used to bully me, I have a tendency to mutter racial slurs under my breath because much of the stuff that he's said and done makes me feel angry at him even though I haven't visited his broadcast since he told some Japanese viewer to "Not pay attention to the foreigner who's writing Japanese sentences". I could go on for like a paragraph about this guy for another paragraph or two, but anyway... How do I not mutter racial slurs while at work, when I'm doing mundane tasks and cannot help but think of how much I hate him?

Also, should I feel ashamed of being racist even if I'm not vocal about it?

Help me. ><

No let the insanity build

Wear duct tape

Also chew come gum
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I will change this when I think of something new.