LogFAQs > #888724006

I do certainly have some level of attention disorder. Got diagnosed with adhd when I was kid and then undiagnosed with that by a different doctor, and then redianosed with it by a third doctor and this went on for a while because doctors have been nothing but useless and incompetent in my many many dealings with them (which is probably just bad luck, but it wears on you)..

It sounds awfully convenient but if I'm not actively enjoying something, I really just can't focus on it at all most of the time. It is somewhat inconsistent though. I have days where I can focus on anything but it always has a rebounding effect. The more I try to force myself the more mentally exhausted I get and it can take only 10 or so minutes until I'm completely out of mental energy doing this.

Reading books is of course the least of my worries (working being the biggest issue as it's rather impossible, especially combined with my non 24 sleep disorder that makes it quite impossible to maintain any kind of sleep schedule without leaving me totally fucked like I was in school all those years before I finally was old enough to drop out.).

I feel kinda bad about books/manga. Like it's not worth it to me to read them, but I still want the stories, just preferably over the course of like an hour instead of multiple days, so theres just no solution. I also just really enjoy the positives of video with the extra nuance and expressiveness that can be added that text just can't do alone. I know manga does have the pictures but it doesn't have the sound that, for me personally, is vital.
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