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Mitski - Puberty 2

Eh… this probably wasn’t a good time for me to hear this. Or maybe it was the best time. I don’t know, but this won’t be an actual review of the music. I’ll start by explaining my listening habits. I generally give the album a first listen through my speakers, then make myself some tea and give it another go on the headphones. After that I’ll choose whichever I preferred and listen again while combing through the lyrics. Finally I'll play it a fourth time (and possibly 5th, 6th, etc.) as I write these reviews. Going through the lyrics for this one was… not fun.

I probably have undiagnosed depression. Probably. Maybe I’ll find out soon. To be honest, I don’t really mind because part of me enjoys it… probably because feeling sad is way better than feeling nothing. While I have little hope for the future and kind of hate my job, I’ve been relatively good until the last few weeks. I only took this job on a 6 month contract so me and my girlfriend could save up for a move we’re planning in the new year, so at least the end is in sight. My girlfriend works in the film industry and she was recently called up for a 5-week rotation on a show that will be premiering on Netflix in a couple months. Pretty big stuff and should be good and happy news for everyone, but the locations are a few hours from the city we live and she’s now gone for the week, visiting each weekend. I mean it’s not even real long distance, and it shouldn’t be a big deal but the ups and downs I’m currently experiencing are insane. Her days are long (12-16 hours on set, plus travel) and we often don’t get a chance to talk since I have to be up early for work… which I hate. And then I come home just hoping we’ll get a chance to talk, basically feeling like a housewife even though I’m working full-time. But then… the weekends are amazing. I’m reminded of how in love we are and everything is great for two days, and then complete shit again. It’s weird because we don’t live together and when she’s here going a few days without seeing her is fine, hell, I often crave it. But as soon as I don’t have the option... she’s all I can think about.

So in short, the past couple weeks I’ve been bouncing between two extremes and I’ve had the idea that I need to find a new obsession, something I can think about from the moment I get home until I go to bed, and just consider it a bonus if we actually get to have a conversation on any given night. Hence this topic. Now going through the lyrics of this album was a real trip. It’s all depression, mental illness and relationship issues. Basically all the themes that have been circling around in my head since this whole thing started. I didn’t want to get too into my own thoughts since I want to keep this in one post, but there is something in nearly every song I can currently relate to on this album and it’s hitting pretty close to home.

I think I’ll end there, and maybe post some thoughts about the actual music a bit later, since I need to start working on the next one for tonight. The music is really good though, I’m incredibly impressed by her as a lyricist and despite everything said, I do appreciate that you brought her to my attention.

Final Rating: Too many feels/10
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