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The Admiral posted...

lowtides posted...

First off I'm a recluse. I avoid even the people in my life (my family) to a large degree.

I believe I have avoidant personality disorder.

I also can't hold conversations.

I couldn't complete high school because of my mental illness.

I'm a virgin and have no friends except yesterday I decided to go for it with this guy I was cybering with. I'm such a loser and awkward as hell

I'll probably start avoiding this guy down the line

I called it appropriately.

You're obviously articulate and intelligent enough that you could certainly find some job that fits around whatever self-diagnosed disabilities you have. The fact that you're deliberately a recluse just creates a negative feedback loop that reinforces all of things you're complaining about. You're just making excuses.

It's not self diagnosed.

If there was nothing wrong with me I wouldn't be diagnosed with schizophrenia, people wouldn't think I have Aspergers, etc

I'm just not doing a good job of explaining my situation because it is a confusing mess.

If there were school counselors, teachers and therapists who thought I was on the autism spectrum there is clearly more wrong with me than what people think.

I just can't properly explain what's going on with me. But it's more serious than I can put into words.