we live only to die, and while life can be enjoyable i've always been a firm believer in the "just get it over with already" mentality of things
like this one time when i was a kid and my friend/neighbor invited my sister and me over but he didn't ask his parents first, and i asked him about that and he said he didn't, so i was like well we have to go then cuz i mean you're gonna get in trouble and then we might, too
so we left and he got in trouble
look, i know it's a BAD example, but it's an example of "fuck it let's just get it over with already" EVEN though it was more a case of HIM getting it over with and not me, but, I mean, you can imagine other scenarios where I follow this mentality properly
and life is no exception. I just think it's futile in a lot of ways. I mean, if I was rich and shit and didn't have to work, I'd enjoy it more but I would still find it utterly pointless. nobody knows the gosh damned answers and that means we're all ignorant of the things that matter and that's terrifying, bro
So it's just a case of wanting to get the death over with, or wanting to get there sooner? Have you been doing okay recently? ---