I happened to think recently that it was nearly 10 years to the day since my first date with my first serious girlfriend, and now today's that day. This got me looking back at my old journal I kept back then. I had been keeping the journal for about 6 months at this point, but only regularly for two months. If this topic goes anywhere, I will go back and post some of other older ones. For the most part, I will keep the entries true to how I created them, though one of my "gimmicks" was to only ever have one paragraph in most entries. I will add some breaks to make it more readable. Also, anything in italicized brackets [] are added editorial comments.
Title: Showtime/Last Nervousness [the double title was another gimmick]
2001-10-06 - 12:26 p.m.
Alright, T-minus 1:34 to date. I can't really wait... I know that I will love it and it will be perfect. I'm going to do my best not to overanalyze whether "I meant to do it Sat" means she was and isn't now or that she didn't Thurs because she will Sat. [I am not 100% sure exactly what I was referring to here, but based on my Thursday entry, I think it is whether or not she was planning to kiss me] I was using that to manifest all my worries though. I'm not gonna let any worries of rain get to me, they said on the weather that it will be scattered if any at all. I am not going to let the nervousness of asking her out and if she says yes bother me. I'm just going to be me. If she doesn't say yes to the prospect it will be ok, we will be the same friends as always, and if she does say yes then we will have a whole new dimension to our relationship. I just have to always keep in mind that even if we breakup and it isn't peachy then just remember that we will have to stay friends forever. I love her to death ya know and couldn't stop :). Lessee... not much else to talk about, I've already bathed. I need to shave and brush my teeth and get dressed, but that is about all. I think I'm gonna run now though. I might post about the date tonight. It just depends on how I feel and all.
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