Good thing it'll take more than you telling me I'm wrong to convince me otherwise.
Of course, another issue could be that we're using the term "belief" differently. I think you could use it in the colloquial sense to say that trusting someone is a choice (although I'd still argue that it isn't, but I'm going to withhold my reasoning for that unless you ask), which is also a form of belief. But I'm using it to mean persuasion, and that is decidedly something that you have no control over. You can pretend to believe something, and your emotions may even override the rational component of your brain enough to give you the impression that belief is a choice, but it's not.
But what makes sense to you in your head is not something that you can decide. It should be completely self-explanatory if you'd be just a little more honest with yourself.
You say its an either or thing, thats on you and shows a basic understanding of the religion - Im not here to fix some kind of complex built from being mad at religion