LogFAQs > #947720913

My highest was 323. Im now down to around 230-236. Ive been in the range since March when my gyms closed. Ive been working out outside and discovered hiking and kayaking. But I also realize I stress out and am Terrified of going back to that weight. The last few
months were very hard because it was too hot to workout outside and now its getting too cold for kayaking. Anytime I even slightly binge eat I feel awful. Weight disorders are so physiological I wish people understood that. I also dont see myself at 230 and still feel like I look like Im 320. A manager at work called me skinny and I was like uhhh no no I'm not. A new hire on a overnight shift asked if I had any snacks in my car and my response was what because I'm a fat ass you think I have snacks in my car he was taken back and was like but youre not a fat ass. I know I already have horrible self esteem
issues so that doesn't help much.


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while driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and I instinctively swerved to miss it, thanks a lot Mario Kart.