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Aculo posted...

i'm not sure i understand entirely. you have a voice. you can speak. but you choose not to... because you're depressed?

not trying to give you a hard time, just trying to understand, ok?

Yes, I have a voice. But I became so silent speaking out about my past problems the trauma became worse enough for me to handle and I was unable to continue speaking as a way to cope with what happened. As if I didn't like the sound of my own voice when I was explaining this shit. Older brother forced me to do oral on him when I was 10. He was 13. Then after a while, I couldn't talk anymore. The secret was out and I started to talk much less. I was getting sick to my stomach almost everyday reliving that memory.