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rogerskg1979 posted...

doomed

I was planning on studying to become an actuary or pursuing a field in data science, but certain obstacles made me sure that I am unable to go for neither of these fields. For one thing, I haven't much experience in programming, statistical or otherwise. I'm trying to learn R at the mo', but I just can't help but feel alone and miserable all the time, which makes me lose my concentration and willpower to continue studying; all the while remembering disturbing events from my past just detracts from my ability to concentrate further. Same thing for studying for actuary tests. I was planning on doing it, but then every time I think of studying, I remember how alone, miserable, and tired I am while doing it, which makes me not want to study. In any case, I'm already taking the rest of the courses I need to graduate in the spring, and I don't think they won't offer me financial aid after I get my degree, unless I want to go to graduate school, which is not something I really want to do right now. The more I think about the future, the more I wish I were a dead man. All my therapist does is give me false hope; he tells me that lots of people would like to hire someone like me. But all he succeeds in doing is pissing me off for not giving any real advice.
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