LogFAQs > #914441452

Look, you've put in the leg work to getting the help you want, the help you believe you deserve, and that's very good. Most people don't even do that and you should be happy and proud that you did do this.

The reactions and actions were not what you expected and made you unhappy. That is unfortunate, and also understandable.

But you need to learn that you cannot control the actions of others, what you think you deserve may not be agreeable with what other people think.

The only thing you are in charge of, and can control is you, what you do, how you think, how you act, how you react.

So you need to accept the fact that getting what you think you deserve is either going to be an uphill battle, or it's not going to happen. These seem to be the two outcomes at this point.
Knowing this is the reality, it does you no good to get upset about your situation, and if you can't not be upset about your situation it's up to you to make a change in your life that makes it better, whether it be a mentality shift, a look for different employment, that's not something I can tell you.
But you're miserable where you are and you have tried to do some things to make it better, but those haven't worked.
Just accepting your misery is a terrible choice and you need to think up new strategies to at least be content with where you are in life. You don't get to have things just because you ask for them, and when you don't, consider empathizing the other side on why that may be. If you find yourself unable to do this then maybe they are just treating you poorly and you can accept that's the way your life will be or you can move on to a new opportunity.

Just sitting around being miserable about the status quo that is your life is not doing anyone any good.