LogFAQs > #914266243

I think one of the things that makes me feel bad about it the most is not so much that these particular guys won't be working together any more, and it's not so much that I don't have a 3PM and 9PM scheduled thing to do.

For me, I feel that the SBF represented a kind of idea of something great, or maybe it was more of an "ideal". Something that's not in my own life: one or two friends that I could sit down and talk to about video games for hours. Exchange ideas. Talk about experiences, how the games made me feel, how I made my way through them. Enjoying interesting parts of the games with people to process with, rather than just having feelings about games and just having them float out to the ether with no one to respond to them or challenge me on them.

Frankly, it's one of the reasons I stay on CE at all: I just can't talk about games the same with people I know in real life.

Watching and listening to the SBF, I could at least get that vicariously. I could get a contact high off their own elation and frustration.

And then to be reminded of reality. That relationships sour. That money gets in the way, that ideas and goals clash and can cause friction. It darkens the whole concept for me, and I wish I had someone I could truly process this with.

Maybe I'll put out the word at MAGFest for a SBF support group, because I know there are fans that go there. Maybe we can all get together and have a good cry about it. :)
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CyricZ