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rahasperj posted...

How did you quit? What steps did you take? Also what was it like? What did it do/ make you feel?

I had to find ways to be a more productive person without chemicals since I was used to just being a machine from being prescribed adderall. To be honest, I was a really irresponsible person, I could just get shit done because of the adderall/meth. I learned to manage my time better and schedule things out so that I don't feel overwhelmed with seemingly insignificant things.

It made you feel like a total machine. You felt awesome and you just have this hyper sense of focus that could be used to school work, video games, or even masturbating. Not a joke, I went over 24 hours before finishing once and my prostate felt like a fucking engine piston just shooting stuff out. I shot over my head and hit the wall behind me and soaked my stomach and face.

It also made you want to keep taking more, and when you take more, that's when bad things start to kick in. My first battle with Meth Psychosis was in college. I lived alone in a studio apartment, to the left of my apartment was the elevator, to the right of mine was an empty apartment. Well, one night while stimming and playing WoW, I started swearing I was hearing "God damnit, he's going to be fucking awake ALL night again" and I kept hearing stuff on a similar vein where this guy was bitching because his girlfriend didn't want to have sex with him in his apartment because of the creepy tweaker who was always awake next door. It eventually escalated to the point where I heard him threatening me, to the point where one day I ran out of my apartment, expecting him to chase me and beat the shit out of me. Again, nobody lived in that apartment building.
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Just try to handle this.