that's not ocd. if that's ocd, then I have ocd. I don't have ocd
>trying to explain OCD to the guy diagnosed with and medicated for OCD
RoboLaserGandhi posted...
OCD would be if you felt compelled to do that every time it happened and if you don't then horrible things will happen.
Which is exactly what goes down. If it didnt, I wouldnt waste my car rides thinking about meaningless crap that makes me feel bad. >_>This isnt even the primary or worst manifestation of it tbh. Fun things in life:
Constantly deleting and re-entering passwords before logging in anywhere
Interrupting reading or pausing games to handle intrusive thoughts.
Not eating because the fear that beginning to eat with trigger intrusive thoughts
Closing/reopening doors, closests, windows, or flipping switches or turning on and off the car ignition multiple times, or walking backwards out of doorways i already entered only to enter them again
Handwashing after my hands touch anything
Throwing away untouched food and going hungry because some trivial non-detail convinced my brain it was contaminated
Backtracking in video games and repetively replaying parts I already completed, or discarding save data, because i didnt handle intrusive thoughts properly and by accepting that progress it would be like accepting those thoughts
The slightest whiff of gas triggering panic attacks
The insane thought that, if i left my bottled drink in the car while I was in the store, some maniac could have broken into the car and poisoned it
And the list goes on. But please, by all means, tell me more about the mental illness that has plagued me for the last 20 years of my life >_>
Sounds like PTSD the way you describe the intrusive thoughts.