LogFAQs > #896338125

I did yeah. Weird thing is I never really thought about it as so profound before. I had thought of it as a foundation for my sense of consequence and right and wrong, but it hasn't really seemed profound before now when I was typing it up. At the same time, hadn't really thought of it in the past few years and other things have happened in the past few years that in this conversation have amplified it and been amplified by it, so that association plays a role here.

I guess what it boils down to is that if I was already doing what I was doing and was that far gone... if I was having consequences imposed upon me, physical or otherwise, that I could have blamed others for (even if misguided) or associated with sources other than myself (again, even if misguided), I likely would have doubled down on the self-destructive behavior out of misguided blame. In all likelihood, this would have led to something jarring that would have straightened me out, but I'm glad it didn't come to that and I learned what I needed to learn before it got to that point.
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