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KazumaKiryu posted...

Amazon_Shampoo posted...

I actually gained weight as part of a fetish I have. I was about that size at my biggest. Since then I have dropped out of the scene and weight less then half of my old weight.

Some people actually really love the feeling of weight gain... and it's hard to explain but the mortality that comes with it gives it's own high.....

Ya, I know I'm messed up.

What scene is this? Tell us more

Well, I got involved in it on a really old web form back when I was way too young to be involved in things like that. It was called.... PAWG or something... Pokemon & Anime Weight Gain. Used to be like the pinnacle of weight gain stuff back when even bbw porn wasn't really as much of a thing. I really got invested in the girls who posted there, and somehow got it into my head that I wanted to be like them.

I mean, I was a chubby girl most of my life... but these girls were huge, I wanted to be just like them. It took me until my late teens before I started to activity try to gain weight. I guess pressure in school to stay thin and to keep in my social circle kinda held me back.

I started off just being stupid, eating Mcdonalds every day, large milkshakes 4 times a day, all sorts of stupid things.... I realized it would kill me even sooner than the weight would. So I moved to just large amount of carbs like rice and potato, Breads, but still made sure to eat normal vegetables to try to stay some form of fake healthy... it made me feel a little better at least.

Well, with this and minimal exercise I ended up gaining fast. I loved it, I loved how it felt as I started to outgrow clothing. How it felt to have people stare at me. Everything about it was how I envisioned it to be... but the extra food was expensive.

I turned to fetish sub reddits and cam sites to make some extra cash to continue to bulk up. I never did full nudity... but honestly people who are into this all they want to see is your belly and butt... some leg here and there. I never even needed to do much for topless. So... in my head it felt ok.

I had my fun, lived my teen years and early 20's doing what I dreamed about most of my younger years. About a year ago I decided to drop out, delete all my content on my sites, close everything I had and get to a weight where I could live a semi normal life.

It was rough, I have lost nearly 300 pounds in about a year and a half of keto and 2 hours a day of exercise. I don't plan to go below 300, and I know that will still lead to an early death, but it is more like.... my 50's vs my 30's if I had kept going. So I'm fine with that.

Edit: That being said.... if I could be beyond massively fat and not die from it I would do it without a second thought.

TLDR I like fat! but want live!