Okay, so I am sitting here right now and my feelings are super hurt.
If anyone remembers there was a girl I hung out with for a few months last year, then we just stopped for no apparent reason. She would always make up excuses of why she was busy, but would still say she misses me.
Now I know she is dealing with a lot this year (her sister died, she is bi-polar and has been starting and stopping meds) so I gave her space but didn't talk to her for awhile.
I only started talking to her again a month or so ago we were gonna hang out, but she canceled basically last minute, but we talked about stuff we could do this week. There is a class movie showing tonight near her we both agreed we wanted to see. So I text her the last two days and no response. But just now I log onto facebook and she posted a ticket stub of her at that showing.
Like at this point it feels like she is intentionally trying to hurt my feelings or legit just doesn't give a fuck about me at all, even as a friend.
I am seriously about to just cut off all contact, which I probably should have already done. But caring about how she is doing (her mental health) and the fact that the time I spent with her is the last time I actually felt happy, is making me delay doing that.
Like right now I am probably the most depressed and lonely I have ever been, but I held out a tiny hope that we could reconnect again, if I throw that tiny bit of hope away I really have nothing.