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AceAttorneyist posted...

Completely agree with this

*shrugs*

KanWan posted...

As a failing Christian, it kinda breaks my heart that youd think of the word in that way honestly. You ARE special start from page 1: Adam and Eve didnt get kicked out because they sinned, they got kicked out because they rejected the one thing that made them special to begin with. The freedom to be, the thoughts of good that naturally flow within everyone, and even the idea that they were perfect in every way being blessed by God. A snake came through and made it so they thought they needed this.. they needed that.. they were afraid of being naked, it was when they looked inside that they saw whatever wasnt necessary to even think about to begin with.

Same applies to you, that channel, connection, or whatever you wanna call it to a forever good is just blocked by the fact you keep seeing yourself through the eyes of a snake that tells you somehow those things arent accessible to you.

Before you even get to chapter 2 in the book.. the next book of the Bible, you
must consider that the whole idea of punishment and torment only arises from the fact that we split off from the idea that were good enough to be naked.. to stand in front of ourselves without shame

Dont let your story be just a figment of your mind, its very real there are many interpretations given to us from the different pages of the book but the beginning is abundantly clear on what its trying to say. You can fuck up the meaning of a book in its middle pages, but not the beginning or the end. everyone at the very least passes those on clear as day when it comes to oral tales passed on from generation to generation.

Sorry I cant explain enough, I just dont know how to reconcile the rest of it either

A failing Christian? In what way? I obviously don't know enough to say for sure, but you seem like you're doing fine to me; far better than people who are Christian in name only and never give their religion any real thought. Take heart in that fact alone.

Also, I understand what you're saying, but... at the same time, i've suffered a lot of trauma in life. My father was abusive while I was young (though our relationship is markedly better these days because of his meds, the damage during early development remains), I was bullied through most of my school years, i've never really had any friends, and I live in a society that does all that it can to invalidate me and my identity. I've been told (directly and otherwise) that I am wrong my entire life and I have trouble believing anything but that the entirety of my being is flawed beyond reconciliation.

With that in mind, I know my inability to look beyond that interferes with my own ability to be a better Christian than I am, but... still, I do what I can manage to do. I keep the commandments in my heart and regularly pray and ask for forgiveness. I feel like what I think runs against what a lot of people think, but at the end of the day, I feel that honoring Him and the word in your own way is good enough.

Heartomaton posted...

What you do: "My life sucks. It makes me sad and mad. I can't think of anything to do about it, so that means there isn't anything that can be done. Better make CE topic #736464894 reaffirming that."

What I do: "My life sucks. It makes me sad and mad. I can't think of anything to do about it, and that makes me even madder. So I'm going to keep trying to find something until I succeed or die trying."

If you need it in simpler terms than that, then I don't know what to tell you, but have you considered that means you need to at least try to do what I'm saying and see if you find your own definition? If you by your own admission haven't got anything to lose, then why not at least try?

So what you're actually saying is that you don't have anything concrete for yourself, either? This is probably part of where my own issues comes in, but I need something a little more tangible to work with...