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Yeah, dad is a narcissistic sociopath. He can't comprehend or care about anyone outside himself. To him, we're just belongings. He's cruel, hateful, and violent. He always has been.

With his first wife, when she said she wasn't happy with him any more and she went to stay at her parents place. He followed and arrived right after. He got his baseball bat and said he was going to kill her and her parents, then proceeded to smash out all the windows and windshield of her car. Idk how that situation was resolved, that's as far as anyone's ever mentioned to me. But they did ultimately divorce.

Then it's the same deal with mom. Once they married, he constantly threatened her. That if she ever left him that he'd kill her parents and hang himself on their deck with a note saying it's all her fault.

Then my brother and me were born. He adores my brother, but despised me. I got the blame for everything going wrong in his life. He's find any excuse he could to insult me, constantly told everyone how pathetic and stupid I was. He never wanted to let me be seen because he was ashamed of me.

If me and mom ever went anywhere, like to the store or church on Sunday, he was waiting for us at the door with a gun. He'd interrogate us to find out who we spoke to and what was said. Kept telling me that he wished I was dead, and that he'd piss on my grave. He'd beat me just because he felt like it.

He used to tell me he hated me for not looking like him. He wanted me to have black hair and blue eyes like he does, but I have brown hair and green eyes instead. Several years ago he was cussing and insulting me, and I just straight up asked him why he treats me so badly, and he answered "It makes me feel like a big man."

So, yeah. Not even getting into the worst things he's done. I have tons of mental issues now, and I don't know how to properly function around others. It's literally halted my life in it's tracks, and I don't know how to break free.