LogFAQs > #971065539

I am now unemployed due to all this and Im not sure if Ill be able to work any time soon. The attacks were so bad that I was in the fetal position rocking back and fourth.

People who havent dealt with it just say to get over it and that nothing is wrong with you, meanwhile Im convinced Im having a heart attack. Several visits to the ER the docs say Im perfectly healthy, but then I keep going back for the same issue.

it seems to be exasperating as I constantly feel a looming threat of impending doom. Constant dread for no reason and no amount of breathing exercises or self talk/rationalizing it makes it stop. I tell myself its not real, There is no imminent destruction. I tell myself that not Im dying. I try to focus on different sounds to take my mind off it. Nothing makes it stop.

in the end I just have to suffer it until it subsides on its own. It happens anywhere, anytime. I cant function when it happens.

even tho I hate the idea Im considering filling for disability. Ive struggled with this issue for 20 years, but it is definitely getting worse.

I dont really want anything. Im just venting.