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Giblet_Enjoyer posted...

Last two sentences couldn't have been written more creepily, lol

The second to last sentence confused me a bit, but the last sentence is true for me. I'm transgender, but I'm not very open about it on this forum. I feel I differ in mindset to the others like me here, which is why I don't express it. I've felt the way I do for decades, though I wasn't really made aware of it until the mid-00's.

I had a lot of female influences growing up, and my best friends growing up as a kid were always girls... and eventually I started picking female characters in games as early as Goldeneye on the N64. It just felt right to me, though I didn't understand why and my friends eventually just stopped questioning me about it and accepted it over time. Interestingly enough... my guy friends subconsciously treated me like a woman, comforting me emotionally and defending me, or "saving" me from things all the time. And when I started to game online, if I didn't reveal my physical sex, then people would assume I was a girl because of the way I talked/expressed myself. I came off feminine to people, and I really liked that. In some communities I was a part of in the past, people would just use she/her for me because in their mind, I was a woman to them.

Anyway... I rambled, but a lot of what was said in the OP is true for me because I date women to "fit" in... but deep down, I look at my girlfriend (past and present) and have a desire to be her. I'm not homosexual, so it doesn't feel right, for me, to date a man, even though I feel that I'm a woman trapped in a male body and that a male personality would be more compatible for me, romantically. It's difficult to describe to someone without it confusing anyone.

I've thought about transitioning... but that wouldn't do it for me because it's not a 100% transition from male to female. It's difficult to say that here because I know others will flame me or label me a "bigot", but the kind of transition I want is my mind/consciousness to be transplanted into a true, physical female body. We can't do that with the technology of today, so I live my true self using other means.