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ElatedVenusaur posted...

If you would like a real perspective, I both wanted to be the woman and to get with women. Some women would inspire jealousy, others attraction, many both (oooh boy, feeling seemingly-sourceless jealousy is toxic in any social interaction). But there's a third thing: you're a woman and want to be seen as a woman and interact with women like a woman does, even if you don't understand that. But you look like a man and sound like a man, and most* women react accordingly, which would always make me angry for reasons I couldn't understand.
So, yeah, to sum it up: I wanted to be a woman and was jealous of women, I wanted to have sex with women, and I wanted to be girlfriends with them, and I didn't understand any of that until I acknowledged to myself I was trans i.e. not a man but a woman.
*Some women can feel it though, even though they probably don't understand it. Few women I came out to were very surprised, and one former coworker told me she always felt a certain kind of way about me. Of course, presenting as a man, I pursued straight women. Some seemed genuinely caught off-guard that I found them attractive: I explain this now as them feeling my feminine energy and subconsciously assuming I wasn't a potential boyfriend.
Which, of course....was 100% correct.

yeah i feel exactly the same way as everything u just said except i didnt want to have sex with them, i think i might be asexual or something, but idk, cuz i have like submissive fantasies and stuff lol. its all so confusing