LogFAQs > #885528504

It's kind of hard to choose. My whole life has sucked, and there's many different options like a couple of times my dad tried killing me, or just being hated by everyone important to me, being suicidal as a teen/young adult.

I guess though, it'd have to be last summer. When I fully realized that there is no hope, and this is my life until I die. I tried therapy, and depression/anxiety medicine, but things still got worse. I decided to kill myself then, and had everything set up. At the point of actually doing it though, I wasn't certain that's it'd actually kill me and not just really myself up, so I backed out at that point until I could be certain.

There's so much I want out of life, and I'm too pathethic, and stupid to get any if it. Plus, even if I did, it wouldn't fix me. I'm banking my happiness and mental health on someone coming along to save me, and that's just not going to happen and it's totally unfair to expect if someone. Im not worth saving, I'm not worth being with.

I'm turning 34 soon, and have never had a relationship, never been with anyone physically, I'm too emotionally closed off and distant in oersonality to get close with anyone. I don't think I could accept a relationship even if the opportunity was present. I'm going to die a stupid, lonely virgin, whose only going to be remembered as an annoyance on a message board.
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