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| apolloooo 07/11/17 4:00:56 AM #10: | Harpie posted... That's kind of sad though I dunno. I am happy as i am. I find it difficult to connect with another person. I still am capable socially and not awkward, but i just dont bother findin new friend or girlfriend anymore. It is honestly exhausting. It is like one of my old friend said: "spend much time alone, and you will get used to solitude. In time it will be normal to you and i think thats a scary thought" And i think she is right with the getting used thing. I dunno what really broke me, i used to enjoy social activities, now i do it only for utility. I dont sincerely enjoy socializing anymore. It is need, not want. As for romance, i dunno. It is even harder for me to fall in love. Lust? Yes, i still have sexual desire to a woman, but love? Commitment, loyalty? Nah. I did fell in love with a,girl back then, we dated a while and it just flickered and burnt out. The older i get, the less i feel desire. I am thinking that was just a phase caused by hormones in teenage years, because according to my parents, i wad like this when i was a kid too. Maybe antisocial is just my nature. Dont think i am gay either. I dont feel attraction towards men and lust i get from women. It is just the aspect where you have to compromise your own life for other people turn me off. I dont know why i am this way. Maybe i am actually depressed, maybe it is because of my egomania or i really am a sociopath. I am,kinda fine with it too. --- http://i.imgtc.com/iJyp6bF.png http://i.imgtc.com/ZBw36Qh.png Thanks for the peeps that made the pics <3 if i make typos it means i am on phone ... Copied to Clipboard! |
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