oh, that one's new. i mostly just saw the first part comparing murder again and just dismissed the rest as i didn't know what you were talking about.
if you went around yelling the n-word at black people and had a history where you promoted the idea that all people should be respected, that they should all be loved - JonTron says those exact words on the stream mind you - and have been following these principles for at least the past few years of your life, i'd ask you what's going on as opposed to just going "oh, guess you're now a racist." are you doing this to make a point of some kind (e.g., Carlin's bit on language)? is this some sort of thing you have going on with a couple friends? my presumption would be that you being racist contradicts how you've lived and what you've believed for years so there's something else to it, not that you just randomly decided to hate black people.
edit: now obviously maybe something happened and you changed. but i would not presume this by default and if there's clearer, more consistent answers, would assume those are probably the accurate ones.
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