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cjsdowg posted...

For me it seems like when people see themselves as just the fat guy it makes he harder to lose weight. It makes it harder to do so many things because they connect with that idea of being the fat guy. ( I got have lost some pounds) not on your level so I am also speaking for my journey and not trying to take thing away from yours . It is odd that we see the same thing and come out with different points of view. (not suggesting you are wrong in any way).

I didn't see myself as just that prior to weight loss though. I had very little self-awareness or emotional maturity and was a very impulsive, reactionary creature, for the lack of a better term.

Becoming the "funny fat guy" was not a conscious choice but a defense mechanism based on how I was treated. I was around 10 when I learned I could ingratiate myself to people that way and quickly centered my entire personality around it with all the maturity and foresight someone of that age can possess.

I lost weight because my health plummeted and I didn't really have a choice. I was going to die because of my weight. Once I proved capable of controlling it and losing a lot of fat, all of this started to become apparent. If I never lost weight, I don't think I ever would have realized any of it. It's hard to explain because it is a little counterintuitive, I guess.

But yeah, there's a lot of variation in how all of this is experienced, as with anything in life.