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20. I was on my own. I still believed but didn't pray, attend church etc. This happened till 2015. I started a full removal when my sister passed. What she went through no one should have. I wasn't gone but I questioned why. I explored other areas. 2020 I lost my partner. I had to fend off his family for what was 50% my property who were all christians. They sued me. Someone they have known for 30 years. Pretty much family to me. I felt betrayed. That was my departure. Why do people fake it. I never changed they did. The final nail was a friend who asked for my help to be her caretaker since she lived alone and it was during covid. She said she would die on her own terms. I said ok since she helped me through my partners death and the drama after. The situation was similar to my sister. How cruel does he have to be. My friend was very devout. We had plenty of time to discuss it. I was still being pursued by my partners family who still thought I was hiding shit. So that added to what was already stressful. I told them to go to hell. They just gave up. 2 more things happened one was her daughter visited and her mother was pretty much on her deathbed. Instead of letting their decades long feud go, she never ended the feud. She is also very devout and forgiveness is important. She never did. She should have been there not me. Her passing confirmed I was done. I hate the hipocracy and it from people's family. You either live the life or you don't. I'm more a Christian than they are and I no longer believe.