The guy who made the post about Char responded about Lalah obsession.
Gundam Mk Dead posted...
I believe the Lalah obsession stems from a mounting sense of desperation and misanthropy.
I'm sure, on some level, he still doesn't want to be doing this. Not to say he's wracked with guilt, but Casval never sought any more power than what it would take to accomplish his goals. Young Char took the promotions and accolades to get close to the Zabis. Quattro only agreed to step up when the AEUG needed a leader. It's only in the second Neo Zeon War that Char actively pursues a position of power, which runs counter to what he had been up until that point.
I'm sure he'd like to live in a world that wasn't so backward and narrow-minded. I think he would have liked to find another way. And when you start thinking like that, it's easy to start thinking of could-have-beens. As he digs himself deeper and deeper into this bitter, self-righteous hole, he probably starts to think about all of the things leading him to that point. He probably wishes he had lived his life a bit differently and what could have helped them.
And then you come to someone he once idolized, someone who is impossible to besmirch because she's a perfect memory rather than a living, breathing person with faults. It's easy to think the best of the dead. It's easy to think they might have saved us from ourselves. It's easy for Char to blame the Titans, Haman, Amuro, the Federation. Anyone but himself. So he does blame them. He pushes them down and makes them evil, evil enough that he doesn't feel bad about fighting brothers-in-arms like Amuro and Bright, while propping up Lalah as some sort of Messianic mother figure that could have stopped all of this and shown him the way to happiness if Amuro just hadn't killed her.
Char is going mad with his self-appointed burden of steering the world, and he's looking for a light at the end of the tunnel. But someone so fundamentally broken and bitter can't see one, so he looks at the past through rose-tinted glasses.
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