Believe what you want. But when it comes down to it, who's REALLY the alpha? The guy who says "This is what I am and what I want to be and too bad if the women don't like it" or the guy who devotes nearly every waking hour to finding out what women like and re-arranging their entire life around becoming it?
I guess it would be one thing if I was expending some decent amount of effort trying to pick up girls with my nice guy persona, or if I had unrealistic expectations that such a thing is a reasonable strategy to pursue or something, but I'm not delusional like a lot of betas out there.
But no, keep calling me names. I'm sure it's making Ryoko wet for you right now.
I think the only thing that makes Ryoko wet on board 8 is when she takes her water-proof tablet into the shower with her to browse it.
Also I am pretty much in the same boat as you in terms of level of sex drive, mine is a chemical problem though that my doctor can't seem to get right (testosterone is the least of my troubles and it complicates stuff!) but I also realize that there is absolutely no point in denying how stuff works. What you are going through is denial, Muffin. What you should do is be emotionally honest: You aren't changing not because you want someone to meet your standards, you aren't changing because you just simply don't care if someone ever does. There is a difference, I think. It's okay (if abnormal) to not care for whatever reason, but don't act as if this is some behavior that is on par with what this topic is about. You and this topic are discussing two different subjects, really.
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