I've been generally frustrated over the last year, more than I would like to think is normal for me.
Part of it has been some legitimate falling out with close friends - I don't really have anymore close friendships right now, and I get incredibly frustrated with people that drop responses constantly. I'm finding I prefer time away from people, a first for me, and I'm starting to doubt my whole career direction which has always been driven by wanting to deal with the public and help people daily.
I've been struggling to find interest in other things. It's really common for me to be enjoying games, music, books, TV shows, whatever, and just suddenly start losing the drive to continue. I have more half finished books and games than ever because fewer and fewer things can hold my interest, and I just get frustrated and abandon them. I'll be listening to bands on a playlist, bands I normally completely love, and suddenly their music feels wrong to me. Hell, I've had times where everything I hear just frustrates me - nothing about it, just hearing people talking, music playing, TV going, etc etc puts me in a foul mood.
I haven't been able to seriously play my guitar for awhile now - I've never been a greatly steady player, and even when I enjoy practicing I have to force myself to pick it up and go on, I really have no drive to do anything with it.
My moods fluctuate all over the place with little to no cause that I can determine - sometimes I absolutely love dealing with people and am perfectly fine with putting up with things that annoy me, sometimes I want to throttle them(and I try very hard to remain completely respectful but am not always successful).
I'm frustrated with trying to find a point to anything - I can find very little that seems to have substance in my life anymore. I feel like I don't have any close relationships with people, and very little holding me here. I'm assuming this is not normal but I honestly have no clue, I'm just generally frustrated.
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Joyrock
Fresh from my first justified ban. Ever!