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Sunhawk posted...

Don't forget to see The Breakfast Club for your third date. o_o

Heh we were going to see just a normal movie, the big sick, but she loved the idea of a drive in, and this is just what they happen to be showing today. Yesterday they showed the princess bride and Dunkirk.

The_Donald posted...

How much does she weigh?

Enough :)

Up!

DreadedWave posted...

OctilIery posted...

We're going to a drive in to see a double feature, back to the future and Jaws.

Is it suddenly the 80s?

Apparently!

We're going to a drive in to see a double feature, back to the future and Jaws.

This damn girl just makes me grin so hard. I feel so lucky.

I'm so happy that the movie is apparently amazing, and the sequel is going to bring the cosmic side of the story into play.

Up!

And really, you should read the book or listen to the audiobook. It's worth it :3

DuranOfForcena posted...

Zikten posted...

people who only ever saw the tv miniseries will have their minds blown by this

i've only ever seen the tv miniseries

what are the cosmic dimension, the smoke ritual, and the turtle?

Basically, Pennywise is a multidimensional being. There are a few others like him, one of them being the benevolent force of The Turtle, who created the universe. The turtle tries to help the kids stop Pennywise. The smoke ritual is something they do that allows a couple of the kids to see Pennywise first coming to earth millions of years ago.

https://uk.movies.yahoo.com/sequel-explore-cosmic-dimension-novel-return-1989-says-director-exclusive-141941888.html

This makes me happy. That's such a huge part of the book, and I hope it means we're going to see the smoke ritual. And maybe even the turtle?

joe40001 posted...

Harpie posted...

voldothegr8 posted...

Why do women celebrate getting dates? That's like celebrating taking a piss.

Women don't have it as easy as you think

I'm pretty sure they do but whatever.

They don't.

Oh this applies to me

Except that I'm terrible

legendarylemur posted...

Harry Potter if HP was any good

Joke post

Girl I've been talking to loved it and suggested it, so I'm giving it a shot.

Also need to watch My Hero Academia.

Funployee posted...

at least ONE male, whether it be a friend, co worker, classmate etc. where it's evident that it's a HIGH or decent (not perfect) chance he will treat them right . . .

but she still doesn't give him a chance . . .

why?

Because there's the implied "that I'm interested in" at the end of that statement. Being nice and respectful is not a personality trait.

Bump

_Kowalski_ posted...

Let us know when you put a finger in her butt. Everyone's doing it!

Maybe someday

Care about my good fortune CE

Bump!

Drpooplol posted...

How'd you meet her?

Imo you should continue to work on yourself before getting in a new relationship, but good on ya.

OKCupid lol.

I'm still working on myself. I've talked about this with her, and we aren't even dating yet let alone in a relationship. She has her own anxiety issues, so she understands the struggles.

Burgess posted...

Dude that's a long time to pay by the minute.

Worth every penny

armandro posted...

hi jayrock

ohai!

Honestly? Mary Poppins. Shit never fails to make me smile.

Talked on the phone with her for two and a half hours.

Shit feels so nice.

I was talking to a girl.

For two and a half hours.

I like this one :3

Fuck this X.x

P4wn4g3 posted...

Yeah that's one of those thoughts you need to squash. Other people can't do it for you.

Yup, working on it :3

P4wn4g3 posted...

OctilIery posted...

P4wn4g3 posted...

What helped me a lot was both individual and group therapy. I'm still not convinced I'm on great meds, just some Lexapro in the morning and my overall anxiety/depression levels are still moderately high, but no panic attacks, no insomnia, and I've got healthy coping mechanisms at this point.

Honestly lately the whole idea of coping and managing just feeds my depression lately. Like I'm just waiting for things to get better, because I know they'll never actually be good :/

Getting better is an active process. It takes time and energy. Things won't change if you do nothing. Mostly you just need to identify the thoughts that begin obsessions/compulsions and use self talk to change those. There are other habits and treatments that help a lot but that's the big one.

Yeah, I know. But sometimes, especially lately, I dwell on the idea that things will only ever be better. That there isn't a point, because I'm not going to have things good again.

justaguy3492 posted...

Do you ever get annoyed when someone says "I gotta fix that my OCD is kicking in" and they don't have OCD? I knew someone who was just organized and she would always say things along those lines and my god did it annoy me.

All the fucking time. I hate Monk for that, too.

P4wn4g3 posted...

What helped me a lot was both individual and group therapy. I'm still not convinced I'm on great meds, just some Lexapro in the morning and my overall anxiety/depression levels are still moderately high, but no panic attacks, no insomnia, and I've got healthy coping mechanisms at this point.

Honestly lately the whole idea of coping and managing just feeds my depression lately. Like I'm just waiting for things to get better, because I know they'll never actually be good :/

Zodd3224 posted...

OctilIery posted...

Zodd3224 posted...

itachi15243 posted...

I know how you feel tc. Sometimes I don't even want to be in public because of my number based off.

Sometimes something like noticing I stepped on a crack will trigger it, and then I have to step on every crack at least three times.

It's stressful. And if I ignore it I could have a panic attack

I have similar ticks. Mine are numbers and left right based. Like if I step on a crack with my left foot I have to step on the next crack, and with my right foot. Or when I eat I always first bite I chew on left, then take the same size bite for my second bite and chew on right. Or if i scratch my left side I scratch the same spot on the right side.

Shit like that drives me crazy most of the day.

A lot of mine are in how I walk and how I eat. I have to take a certain number of steps in certain places, or when I'm snacking I have to eat a certain number of crackers spread evenly across my mouth. Certain number of bites, etc etc.

We may be twins

Man I hope not, for your sake.

And it sucks more because I work with my ex. I'm fine and over it then I see her and it starts again.

Zodd3224 posted...

itachi15243 posted...

I know how you feel tc. Sometimes I don't even want to be in public because of my number based off.

Sometimes something like noticing I stepped on a crack will trigger it, and then I have to step on every crack at least three times.

It's stressful. And if I ignore it I could have a panic attack

I have similar ticks. Mine are numbers and left right based. Like if I step on a crack with my left foot I have to step on the next crack, and with my right foot. Or when I eat I always first bite I chew on left, then take the same size bite for my second bite and chew on right. Or if i scratch my left side I scratch the same spot on the right side.

Shit like that drives me crazy most of the day.

A lot of mine are in how I walk and how I eat. I have to take a certain number of steps in certain places, or when I'm snacking I have to eat a certain number of crackers spread evenly across my mouth. Certain number of bites, etc etc.

Sami1000 posted...

Is that really OCD though? Having obsessions is one thing but without the compulsions it makes that seem as just high level of anxiety.

Not trying to belittle anxiety or your issues, just what you said here doesn't seem like OCD to me.

There are definite compulsions, but they aren't so debilitating.

NeoShadowhen posted...

OctilIery posted...

NeoShadowhen posted...

Therapy and meds, bro.

Therapy starts soon I'm on meds, but Idk if they've had time to kick in.

They haven't. Keep taking them. Any idea what kind of therapy?

Just general therapy, no idea of specifics. I probably won't even see the same therapist again because I'll be changing jobs.

And I started meds at the beginning of the month, just went up to 30mg of Prozac today.

giantblimpN7 posted...

My favorite is when I have to make shit symmetrical or I get anxious as hell and then I realize I look weird when I do that and then get anxious about how weird I look.

My compulsions are a little worse than my obsessions.

My compulsions aren't so bad. I sometimes draw blood from picking at hair, but that's about the worst of it and it's never very seriously. My obsessions have gotten significantly worse, though. This is what I imagine addiction feels like, being betrayed by your brain.

NeoShadowhen posted...

Therapy and meds, bro.

Therapy starts soon I'm on meds, but Idk if they've had time to kick in.

I feel like I'm barely functioning because I can't control my thoughts. I obsess about my ex, who I want nothing more to do with. I obsess about a job interview I can do nothing about. I obsess about work, what people are thinking of, what they see in my face.

It's so unhealthy but I can't stop. My anxiety is through the roof, I'm literally shaking half the time. And this is without having any real problems to concern me.

Trayvon posted...

why did you break up?

Just wasn't a good fit. Neither of us were happy. I should've broken it off well before, but couldn't bring myself to :/

Jagr_68 posted...

OctilIery posted...

Shit sucks. The relationship was bad, but I hate losing a friend, even knowing she was a bad one. And I hate how much I'm obsessing about someone I know is completely unhealthy for me :/

Find a therapist you can afford. seriously

I have a therapist I'm starting to see on the third, although I'll probably have to leave that one and find a new one because I'm switching jobs and it's through my insurance plan there.

stoltenberg11 posted...

get zelda and forget about her. i did that with skyrim once

I have Zelda already, I need to finish it

StrikeGently posted...

She ain't worth it, bruh

I know. Doesn't change it. Like, this is what I imagine drug addiction being like. I know it's bad but it's still what dominates my mind.

Veggeta X posted...

Dude the heart wants what it wants.

Yeah, but my heart is a fucking moron.

I don't even want to be with her, I just don't want to be alone again :/

Bump

Halp distract me CE

Bok_Choi posted...

sounds like they just delayed the inevitable

No no, they just helped to keep them from being overcooked.

Fuck OCD and Depression, CE. Shit isn't fair.

Dustin1280 posted...

this is stupid, what you are about to do is stupid.

Don't be stupid

No, I have to do it. We're only meeting because we have a bunch of each other's stuff, and she's giving me the Switch I got her, which I'm promptly going to sell.

Shit sucks. The relationship was bad, but I hate losing a friend, even knowing she was a bad one. And I hate how much I'm obsessing about someone I know is completely unhealthy for me :/

Like, you would think, assuming they're made in order, 19 would've been the strongest, but in reality he was significantly weaker.

Not changing the name is fine, the rest are deal breakers.

yemmy posted...

how could you be depressed and surrounded by corgis at the same time?

I am no longer depressed

DreadedWave posted...

OctilIery posted...

I am surrounded by corgis

Are you in heaven?

Nope just Portland

I am surrounded by corgis

--kresnik-- posted...

Happy birthday. Mine was Wednesday.

August ones are the best :)