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It's difficult to resolve such a thing when the experiences were that bad. I've had decent relationships with decent women after all of that before, but I'm still very afraid of most girls I meet. It's not as bad as it used to be.

The thing that makes it the toughest to deal with is that I feel like I have no where and no one to talk to about it. Also my facebook feed and plenty of other outlets occasionally have some rather misandric posts about rape culture and violence against women which almost always makes me feel extremely nervous and uncomfortable because of the rather generalized accusatory phrasing of these PSA's. That and how if I mention what I've been through and that I do respect that what they're saying is an issue I don't respect that it's overly generalized as if all men are guilty of this sort of thing because I've been beaten up and sent to the ER because people have the mentality that all men are potentially horrible human beings to such an extent they'll hospitalize you without question or due process or any facts or evidence you deserve what you've gotten.

Even after that I'm told I'm horrible for saying "not all men" or questioning the ramifications or acting as if all men are evil.

So, I sorta just try to avoid places that post things like that, cause it mostly just makes me feel more nervous and a lot worse. But I don't want to avoid those places because I very much am for their cause and reducing these things from happening. It's just a bit hard to be around a group of people when it feels like they're constantly saying you're a horrible person because you're a guy... I don't know. But that [censored] stresses me out a lot.
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SmokeMassTree posted...

Are you mad at your mom

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ImmortalityV posted...

SmokeMassTree posted...

I now identify as woman

Fite me

Two genders. Get a sex change and maybe

Wow so insesitive and bigoted
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I now identify as woman

Fite me
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Jen has massive thighs tho. One kick and you're done
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Kanaya413 posted...

_PandaMaster_ posted...

Harpie is a user from CE. If you all care that badly, go to CE and find out the user's identity.

Is this like a side quest
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Absolutely
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So, She tries to convince me to stay and suggests that we'll have more privacy if I do. I say I'd love to stay but I have to work and I need a ride home and my ride home is leaving.

Previously at the same party, unknown to me [but at the same time, sorta known to me]. I was on the porch not feeling so well and decided to sleep in my friend Ryan's car [my ride home]. Me and 2 other friends walk to the car to see some girl having sex with ryan in the car. I wasn't aware who it was, but it turns out with was the same girl who tried to get me to spend the night and almost had sex with me in the basement.... Except this is before all that happened.

Anyway, after the party I'm hanging out at this coffee shop where I know most of my friends and so on. And it's been 3 days after the party and a friend of mine comes up to me and tells me that there's a rumor going around that I raped some girl. I'm a bit shocked by this. It turns out there's a rumor that Ryan did as well and that it's the girl from the party. She's saying that Ryan raped her and that I did too in the basement of the party.

But, everyone who was actually at the party and saw what happened says she's lying and making this story up. People who are known to not like me at all are telling people "No, she was making out with him and tried to get him to stay and spend the night but then he left cause he had to be at work, she's lying and full of [censored]".

Despite people who were actually there saying that it never happened some people still very much wanted to believe it happened anyway.

One day I was out and about and ran into her. I turned to go walk away and go somewhere else and then there was a crowd of people who were chasing me and they attacked me and beat me so badly I had to go to the emergency room. On the way there the guy in the back of the ambulance was telling me he'd heard what I did and that he thinks they shouldn't just left me there to die and tells me what a horrible human being I am. I spent a week in the hospital before I got out.

When I left, I barely left my house for anything other than to go to work or the grocery store or to pay my rent. I just didn't want to leave my house at all. I saved up and then I moved and got a new job. I didn't want to be anywhere near that neighborhood or those people anymore.

Too this day I'm very afraid of women.

I'm afraid because I had met someone who I though was interested in me, even if just in a superficial surface level kinda way where she was just horny. I still had the impression she was interested and I was respectful of her. The moment she said she felt uncomfortable and wanted to stop I did. But still she went and spread lies that resulted in a group of people attacking and hurting me so badly I had to go to the emergency room and on my ride there I was treated like I was the bad guy.

I'm still scared everytime I meet someone... just thinking of how they can lie and completely ruin my life so easily. This is probably my biggest hurdle in relationships, I have some extreme trust issues because of this
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Well... not in the "I'm too nervous/shy/timid to talk to them" terrify me as much as the "I'm legitimately afraid for my own safety and well being" sort of terrified. Yes.... I can feel you rolling your eyes into the back of you skull at the moment, so let me elaborate. Story time.

Fearless, but nervous.
Age 0-24
Never really had any legitimate reasons to be afraid, maybe nervous. But not full blown fear. During these times the closest I'd come to being afraid was when my older sister, and roommate at the time, threatened to call the police on me and lie and tell them I hit her if I didn't wash the dishes. I laughed at her and said "go ahead and try." and she did, and the police showed up and I did get arrested despite my younger brother [12 at the time, I was 21 at the time] saying no one hit anyone that entire time. I spent 3 days in jail because a girl told a cop that I hit her even though she had no marks on her and 2 witnesses at the scene [my older brother and younger brother] said that no one hit anyone, I was still arrested and still missed work and still lost money and still had my plans for those 3 days ruined.

And I had to go to court and prove that it never happened. I had to have my younger brother and older brother show up to testify, and the prosecution questions if they were just lying for me or not and still tried to get me locked up for that. It was very frustrating and eventually it was settled and I was found not guilty but it's still on my record that I was charged for it [which any employer can look up if I apply somewhere].

Since then I've been very on edge around any girl who seems to dislike me and seems the slightest bit shady or unethical. The idea that a girl can call the police and they'll show up and arrest me basically no matter what I have to say worries me a lot. I'm not the most charming of people, I have a monotone voice and can be long winded and tend to over explain things when I talk and people take it the wrong way, so sometimes people just think I'm being an asshole and get mad at me and just don't like me. So this worries me a bit... But I mean, at this point it was only my sister who'd done that and she's pretty horrible.

age 25.
The party and a visit to the E.R.

At this point, the worst thing that's been done to my by a girl was when my sister had called the police and lied to get me arrested because of a petty dispute over who's turn it was to clean the kitchen. So, I kinda just learned to avoid her and I'm feeling not so bad about other girls. That was 4 years ago.

I mean, I was rather nervous if I liked someone and didn't have the best self esteem. I was around people who weren't very nice about that either and quite a few made fun of me for being single and just straight up mocked me or if I was with someone said they didn't believe me or that she must be stupid or something along the lines where I was the butt of their jokes and the theme was that I was undateable and unattractive. I asked one girl if she wanted to hang out and grab lunch sometime and her response was extremely rude, she laughed at me and said she thought I was joking.

So, kinda was around a bunch or horrible people [who I don't talk to anymore]. I go to this party with a few friends. At the party I meet this girl and we start making out and she puts her hand down my pants and says we should go somewhere more private. So, we wander off to the basement. And we're making out and taking each others clothes off when she notices a couple in the corner of the room and says she doesn't feel comfortable and wants to stop. So, I help her put her bra back on and I put my clothes back on. We go back upstairs and continue to make out and cuddle a bit more and then mingle a bit and so on and then it's time for me to go cause my ride is leaving. But she asks me to stay and I said I couldn't cause I'd have no way home.

Sooo I'll do a 2nd post to finish this.
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Intentionally
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Are you mad at your mom
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Yes
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Right no pink no nood
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Males also
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Yes, god bless
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Yes
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WastelandCowboy posted...

Zangulus posted...

Who cares?

This.

Literally, these posters are so goddamn paranoid and cynical that they freak the fuck out whenever someone new is here on the off-chance that they're an alt. Fucking grow up and either ignore them or shut up, already. PotD isn't some no-girls-allowed secret society boys club. It's a non-topical community message board.

You just made the list
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I like you, do you like me
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You guys know that unique name you picked to represent yourselves? I bet only mine represents me.
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Yeah guys, if she has socks on it's totally not a nood
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Some trans chick

Wow

@JunkoEnoshima
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Toe in V
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Muscles posted...

Ask if anyone involved is a minority

As soon as you walk into the court room just yell it.
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i definitely asked for the bob pics

No noods tho
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RIP Ico

This could have been your new Claudia
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Wear a black lives matter shirt

Or a black laughs matter shirt

Either one will get you dismissed
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Football head
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Talks about being wet and having ridiculous tits

Doesn't send noods

Back to the shit hole you came from demon

I'm going to take a shot in the dark, it was @Kanaya413
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Twin jello wrestling match
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DirtBasedSoap posted...

Hahahahahahaha you thought bay watch was a good movie? Tagged you as low-watt brain.

Guess you have to not be a depressed virgin to appreciate it

Sucks to be you
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DirtBasedSoap posted...

has the rock ever been in a single decent movie in his fucking life? holy shit

do above average intelligence people actually find Kevin Hart funny? holy shit

Several

Baywatch Moana ff movies pain and gain walking tall the other guys

Kevin Hart was really funny when he was doing standup. Not so much in movies
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Who
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The rock + Kevin Hart tho

You could have those two just sitting at a table silently for two hours and people would still go see it
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Hi mead, I'm POTd
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You still jeliy tho

Someone read the handbook on POTd attention grabbing. Didn't even acknowledge that you wrote it.
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Jen is jeliy
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2
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Jen lives in Arizona
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Nah you look 10x better with ridiculous tits

You just look like a troll with the small ones

Your decision was terrible and I'm sure you regret it
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Now show ass
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We've all already seen your bobs Ico

You're dead to me jen2
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Bobs or no more attention
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Your eyebrows are bushy
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No I like the way I said it better

Yours is mean
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Gofu curse elf99
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Are you sure you spelled that correct
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I gotta try that shit
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