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And tonight my ex decided to blurt out something stupid as soon as she got home and it made an already terrible night even worse.

God, I fucking HATE life.

bsp77 posted...

He doesn't contribute because he doesn't work.

Never knew if he truly can't work or just refuses to. Super slash?

We think it might be both. He is just completely unmotivated to try because of how many interviews go nowhere. His average job has only lasted a few months. He lasted 5 years at Walmart but that was over a decade ago.

Cornmuffins posted...

Can you afford rent without him?

Yes. He's at least half the reason I have been struggling so much with money.

We've lived together literally since we were born. 32 years later and he is getting worse and worse and worse. I just don't know how much more I can take.

It's a...reaaaally long story, and I simply don't know what to do. I want him to stick by me through everything, but I'm not getting the support I need. He lashes out about so many things; we had a pretty big fight this afternoon. Common for us now unfortunately.

I've dealt with his emotional issues for forever and they aren't getting any better. They're getting worse. A lot of this has followed us since literal childhood, and I don't have high hopes that it's going to get much better.

At this point, while disability would help the issues a bit, things have gotten so bad that we don't have the time to wait on it. He's actually getting rapidly worse ever since I got a job. We have gotten angry enough at each other that you can see it in our eyes. And this is more common than it ever should be.

This whole thing breaks my heart. My brother has had an absolutely terrible upbringing (I did too, but not nearly as bad). On top of likely being really high on the autism spectrum, his needs are so specific and structured that I cannot afford to keep meeting them. I'm not even sure government assistance would actually give him what he wants.

Separating is the last thing I want to do; it could be his final push to death. But he's going to die anyway if his situation doesn't change. It's gotten really bad and serious. I wish it were as simple as him just getting a job, but unfortunately almost nothing in my life is as straightforward as it sounds on the surface.

I would just break up with her even with the kid. You sound delighted but it's only temporary. This is a disaster waiting to happen. For what my opinion is worth, if these issues have been going on for a long time chances are they aren't going to be resolved. That's based on my experience in a five and a half year relationship that I NEVER thought was going to work.

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MotaroRIP619 posted...

You probably need to figure out something to change the living situation. The next thing that is going to happen is she will be going on dates and shit. I knew a guy I worked with that was sleeping on the couch while his wife and him were separated, and shed bring home guys and have sex with them in the next room. With the kids home. So if youre already feeling upset about it, you probably dont want to watch all that go down.

Yeah, I'm afraid that's going to happen as well =/

I am struggling a lot to move on ever since the breakup. The fact that I have to continue living with her indefinitely makes it so much worse.

And yet it seems she's moving on just fine, which is also frustrating to see. I already had no energy before the breakup, now it's even worse. I just go to work, go home and the only thing I really look forward to is sleeping off my feelings.

Damn, this sucks.

Rika_Furude posted...

How is it different from a stranger in a chat room or forum on the internet telling you to do the same?

It really isn't but that wasn't your initial argument.

Rika_Furude posted...

How is this different from someone finding some online circle that feeds their delusions? People that are unwell need help and the root cause isnt whatever the current fad is.

and yeah, the same arguments have been made about books, the internet, video games, lots of technology etc in the past. You guys pretty much just hate it cause its new and it scares you. So yes, Old People syndrome

ChatGPT telling you to take ketamine and to cut off your friends isn't the same thing as violent/sexual content being found in media.

Shit like this is why my ex using ChatGPT *literally all day* as a Dom is starting to seriously concern me. AI was a mistake.

It is good but I never really felt the passion behind it that others do. The battle system is also painfully slow, and the Trance mechanic is largely wasted.

It has good characters, story, dungeons and music though.

Customers bitch at the associates taking the orders, coworkers get impatient with other coworkers, I've seen one or two verbal fights between associates already, and our stand in manager today was absolutely rude as fuck. First impressions are, he has the worst attitude out of any manager I've worked with, and that's saying a lot.

Other than that so far so good. I'm getting about 30 hours a week and I'm slowly improving. Not making a whole lot though

I'm still embarrassed and don't know if I wanna check all the replies lol.

It is irrelevant anyway since like Storm said, it was a Switch 1 which I missed when I made this thread. I'll work up the courage to see how you guys beat me into the ground though =P

Hi guys. Sorry for my absence.

I'm not in a good headspace right now for various reasons. I'm sure theres a lot of good advice in here. I'll look at them later.

I felt stupid for posting this almost immediately and didn't want to come back.

Starks posted...

You're trying to justify something you can't afford

Probably

With Affirm credit through Amazon, I can get one very affordably. I just don't know if it's a good idea when I'm just now getting my shit together, slowly.

I know it would make me really happy if I did it, though, and after all the shit I've been through I feel like I deserve it.

Idk though. I'm aware there are hardware issues and stuff. =/

I'm on Sailor Moon R (episode 53 in total), watching the redub. I am impressed at how good this is. Why did I sit on it for so many years lol

I know it's mostly not canon to the manga but it honestly doesn't even matter. It's good enough on its own merits. The voice acting is great too.

That game was phenomenal.

AceMos posted...

did not know you had a break up *hug*

Yeah we are working through it.

NoxObscuras posted...

Congrats on the job. And what about your work do they want you to be more productive about? Are you working slowly (should be expected of a new employee), or do they want to to look busy, even when there's 0 customers? If it's the latter, you could offer to clean if you're up for it. I worked for McDonald's years ago and the manager often had me go sweep up the lobby and parking lot if things got too slow.

I think it is primarily the latter

AceMos posted...

you got a job CONGRATS

It happened literally days after my breakup lol; that's very ironic.

Oh GOD, it's boring and dull.

It's like...one small room, and you're working with 4 or 5 other people at once. I wouldn't say it's intimidating, but it is kind of hard to find things to do at certain hours. I was told I'm going to end up getting my hours cut if I don't work more productively. I am used to retail though, and have very little experience with fast food.

Getting around 32 hours a week. I wanna keep that.

AceMos posted...

any news

She has lost another half pound over the last week. Her sides look like they're caving in. They have her on more antibiotics but we're thinking euthanasia is gonna have to be on the table.

The tumor I posted a week or two ago has expanded a lot, and today she is emitting an absolutely awful odor. I'm sitting next to her and her entire body smells like infection.

=(

I am on buspirone, trintellix, and apriprazole. I only sporadically take them, I'm not sure why, but at this point I haven't taken any of them in about a month.

Not really feeling too much different. Taking meds on time is a chore and I always end up forgetting until several hours later, then I just say it's been too long, fuck it. I am tempted to drop them entirely at this point. It doesn't seem worth the headache, figuratively and literally, and changes of circumstances help me more than meds ever will. I will probably feel worse if my body constantly has to readjust, so maybe I should quit while I'm still a month in without them?

2Pacavelli posted...

Stay Strong TC, I understand I've been through one and it changed the trajectory of my life

I'm dealing with that on top of something else rather major. This isn't fun.

2Pacavelli posted...

If you live with her you might be best off just doing your best to salvage the relationship, until you're able to move out.

At least you may have somewhat of a peaceful coexistence?

That's what we are doing yes. We are hoping to stay BFFs even after I eventually get out.

Robot2600 posted...

Why do u have to live w/ her?

Really long story but in short, it's that or I stay in a shelter for awhile.

I'd been fine for a whole week. Last two days I'm back to getting emotional about it. It might be even worse than the first wave of emotions.

I can't seem to have fun by myself right now. I'm used to doing everything with her. It hurts so much. Having to live with her is making everything worse for me.

I think I can get through this, but until I leave it's going to be really hard =/

I've been biking ahead of traffic. Is that not how you're supposed to do it? Biking towards traffic seems really dangerous.

I even got stopped by a cop right before I got home and he told me to get off the road.

It took me two hours to get home when it's supposed to be 36 minutes lol. I fell on my bike and twisted the wheel and dislodged the chain, and some dudes in a pickup truck had to help me.

Fuck yeah I made it. I'm a champ.

You're right it absolutely is. I have nearly 6 years of work experience but only like 2 months in fast food.

Today isn't gonna be fun. My sleep schedule is atrocious; I don't usually go to bed until late morning. The busses also stop running on Sundays at 7 PM, so I'm gonna have to bike home for the first time and it's a 40 minute ride. I'm very inexperienced and nervous. Work comes with a price I guess.

teep_ posted...

I'm guessing it wasn't with your weed guy?

nope

My first was in 2018, in front of my weed guys house lol

NoxObscuras posted...

Man why are you doing that to your brother lol. He's gonna have a rough time with the series if that's how he's feeling already.

He is super loving the story though lol

It was my third Trails game, long before Zero and Azure got released in English. Sky FC and SC were my first two.

Playing it again with my brother and it's so much better now, especially with Crossbell context. Currently just entering the start of chapter 5, and holy shit it's a long game. My bro doesn't have the patience for all the NPC dialogue and we're still like 50 hours in. I remember the last chapter being fucking long as shit, too.

I've only played CS2 once. I remember it being fairly weak. We'll find out.

I make magic happen.

BlazinBlue88 posted...

Great news. What's the job?

Burger King

I just got a job today, and I'm free from the toxic prison of a 5 year relationship; we are both handling this very maturely while we have to continue living together.

Life has finally gotten its color back. I am almost moved to tears. This is fucking liberating. I lost myself in that relationship and I'm proud of myself for how quickly I am bouncing back.

I also learned how to ride my bike, so transportation shouldn't be as much of an issue. ABOUT TIME things start swinging in the other direction. I have been smiling a lot today, and I had forgotten what that was like.

Burger King. This time, I am not bound by a toxic relationship, and I also have a bike so I'm not quitting.

spriga posted...

Why would you pay anything if it is your ex's cat?

I'm not able to pay anything. It's still a cat that deserves treatment though

And today:https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/forum/8/8da55c72.jpg

Pic from yesterday

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/forum/a/adf7c3ad.jpg

She is unable to walk well.

My ex's cat has a huge cyst. She's wanting to take her to the vet tomorrow, but the vet is wanting $400 upfront and we only have 200.

This is possibly an emergency. The cat is like 15 years old. This is the last thing I need to worry about right now =(

What options are there?

5 years of a toxic as hell relationship that you intuitively knew would not work does a lot of damage to a person.

I'm finally starting to get my energy back. I'm going through all kinds of mixed feelings right now but I am completely positive this was the exact direction my life needed to take.

I was so shackled down by a relationship I wasn't ready for. Now I feel like I can FINALLY get somewhere. This is the thing I have wanted most for years. Finally realizing that.

Freedom feels nice. Time to seriously make use of it.

I feel that

I might lurk, but I don't intend on posting much at all. I think I'm earning a bad reputation here.

Going to try improving my life as much as possible.

I am sorry if any of you feel like I'm ignoring your advice. I'm really not, but instead of explaining myself I think I'm just gonna bow out for awhile. I don't know how long, could be a day could be a month.

Peace. If anyone cares lol /blogfaqs

Glob posted...

Youre asking the wrong question.

You shouldnt be working out how to live with her. You should be working out how to escape her.

I have to co exist with her until I CAN find a way to leave.

I know I need to fix myself. I have a lot to work on. I saw this coming for this exact reason a mile away.