sometimes I wish I was never conceived. What a waste of baby batter. My dad is probably ashamed of me as I am of him.

Sometimes I wish during my birth I had just suffocated and not made it since there were complications to my birth. If after 37 years my life would turn out like this. I made my own grandmother suffer with me as a child until I was 12 constantly getting sick and having to go to the hospital she didn't deserve that I didn't deserve such a caring person like her. There were many times were I could have lost my life throughout my life and I don't know why God keeps saving me. I almost suffocated as a child going into a standing fridge but my grandmother heard me screaming

and these are the reasons

I'm not good at getting woman I don't even know how to talk to them in fact

I don't know how to talk to anyone or make friends

Nobody likes me I'm constantly getting picked on by adults

I'm not good at any jobs I do I don't know how to get a job I'm not good at grammar or school or anything. I'm not intellectual I'm pretty dumb

I'm not good at video games at either Hey I've beaten people before online but It's extremely close in COD I get kills but more deaths all the time.

without getting into my looks I can say it's not what woman is looking for. I'm unattractive and that's putting it nicely I'm pretty much useless and a waste of a person I can't even talk on gamefaqs and get into fights all the time

what I'm saying is now that grandma is gone the real suffering begins she was the only one holding my lil world by a thread.

Now that no one loves me I feel awful I don't deserve love or any decent thing to happen to me.

It's just about playing the waiting game and see when god calls me to him thats all I can do now

I'm not gonna do anything in my life worth while what hurts most is not being able to have a g/f. or any friends at all

even not being able to talk to them destroys my psyche to the max

I'm Garbage if I could know how to talk to them or reel one in I'd be happy regardless of anything else I was bad at. but holy fuck I'm not good at even making guys my friends all this I'm a gamefaqs legends is just one big meme and not even true those guys are just fucking with me I'm not really no one here I cause more problems then a legend

when girls see my face and height I bet they wanna vomit and even moreso that I'm over weight now.

did I even mention as soon as I got my health I got a mental illiness and had to take a anti psychotic that made me gain weight so there goes my beautiful body since i had nothing else going for me since I'm short.

and pretty much took that medicine for 20 years

How this one girl in 2005 was always trying to talk to me and invited me to her house and always wanted to hang out with me I'll never know that's probably the one girl I'll only actually spend time with in my life time

with that being said I'm leaving CE and all social boards I don't know how to talk to anyone or anything here I'll just get snowed by insults and won't know how to react.

Goodbye...........Kamara

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Win win Win win win Curve everything else and win.

ATTEN: CE I want everyone to read this !!!

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