Lurker > Pukelid

He's Back (The Man Behind the Mask)

how am i the first one to say it guys
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Hairistotle

i didnt want to but ended up going anyway. i liked it (thought i wouldnt) so that's cool
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Hairistotle

my old boss is now in my boss's office right now. it's gotta be about me. damn i should have just kept my mouth shut and let this get worse until it crippled me
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Hairistotle

Alpha218 posted...

I know you cant just turn off anxiety, but worrying about the outcome wont help you

Holy_Pumpkin posted...

Good luck TC. Is there anything you do to try and manage your stress and anxiety?

i just gotta sit with it until i get my old position/a better job. it fully bleeds into my after-work time, leaving me so tired i can barely stand. stopped my 1-2 hour after-work walks entirely
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Hairistotle

boss came to me and said she's still waiting on the answer. my anxiety is only going up today. just about at the point where "so exhausted from constant heart pounding that im about to pass out"
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Hairistotle

back to work. death would be a welcome alternative. why am i so doom and gloom but literally nobody else i know is this way

none of my coworkers are struggling so hard mentally
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Hairistotle

Well I know the temp sucks and isn't well liked but now I'm gonna feel terrible if they can her. Dammit. Well if it's me or her...
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Hairistotle

I really hope the answer isn't no
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Hairistotle

This is part of why I'm too scared to invest. I would probably full on kill myself if that scenario happened to me and I had a decent amount invested.
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Hairistotle

i don't think so. they lost me at skyrim. i dont like the further away from rpg they've been getting with each installment. it's just not for me anymore
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Hairistotle

pojr posted...

story? I'm just hearing this for the first time

moved to texas for a job, the office i worked at got shut down, moved back to ny

got a job taking claim reports for commercial auto insurance, was much better than everyone else at it. management found out i had experience being a claim adjuster and bumped me up. been doing it since july. mental state has been nosediving ever since. i knew i wouldnt like the job but i didnt think i would be so crippled by my mental state over it. after a night of extremely rocky sleep and a morning full of nausea and dizziness, i sat down with my boss and said "this is really hard to ask, but is there any way i can be considered to go back to my old department"

my boss was like "is everything ok mike" and i'm like "you guys have been great to me but i've been having a 4 going on 5 month panic attack over this. i wanted to hold out because i thought i would escape these jitters eventually but it's beginning to affect me outside of work as well"

she was basically like wow i'm really sorry to hear that, that's the last thing we want for you, yadda yadda. She said she'll talk to office management and see if i can go back. we're not sure because there's a temp in my old position at the moment
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Hairistotle

still no word. the anxiety is bubbling over
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Hairistotle

MedeaLysistrata posted...

i don't understand why that would make anyone feel better

solidarity or something
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Hairistotle

if it makes you feel better, my outlook on life has only gotten more and more grim over the years to the point where i see no future for myself. things aint lookin good
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Hairistotle

i'm so tired of being a 10 anxious

i wonder when i'll know by
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Hairistotle

Soggy_Pocket posted...

In tears? She'll have you by the tits now. I'd just quit.

"practically" can mean "almost"
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Hairistotle

R1masher posted...

Uggh, I wouldntve

You're not obligated to post in every single topic. Every single one dude. Like chill.

R1masher posted...

Uggh, I wouldntve

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Hairistotle

I was practically in tears when it happened. One of the hardest things I've ever done. She doesn't even know if it's possible since there's a temp in my old position right now. She said she will find out and get back to me. I felt very guilty asking but she seemed compassionate about it. If they don't let me move back, I will have to quit.
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Hairistotle

DanHaren2019 posted...

Pukelid posted...

Nah I had >2:1 kdr and just ran around with a shotgun or mp5, extremely easy games. Still met the same success when I returned to mw rerelease

sure u did. these are the excuses noobs are making now

i did

yemmy posted...

He is saying he has a +2.0 kd in the new CoD

no im talking about mw1 - black ops 1
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Hairistotle

Nah I had >2:1 kdr and just ran around with a shotgun or mp5, extremely easy games. Still met the same success when I returned to mw rerelease
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Hairistotle

yemmy posted...

Pukelid posted...

Lol dude no it aint. I had hundreds of hours on each cod up to black ops.

It isn't that simple, you have to use cover and learn the maps. Can't just run everywhere or it will be you that gets shot in the back.

If you play like that then you're gonna get your ass kicked by any halfway decent player.

Watch the CoD pros and see if they just run around aimlessly

Damn cods changed a lot then
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Hairistotle

DanHaren2019 posted...

Pukelid posted...

Idk what cod is like these days but 10 years ago there was not getting good. You just run around the map at breakneck speed and anytime you see someone before they see you, you get a kill

This is exactly how you can tell someone doesnt know how to play

Lol dude no it aint. I had hundreds of hours on each cod up to black ops.
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Hairistotle

Idk what cod is like these days but 10 years ago there was not getting good. You just run around the map at breakneck speed and anytime you see someone before they see you, you get a kill
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Hairistotle

Yea I agree. To someone like me, sports and luxury cars mean literally nothing except wasted money
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Hairistotle

I literally forgot Snooki existed until right now. I still don't even know what she looked like. Never heard of this incident
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Hairistotle

Lonestar2000 posted...

God/Allah doesn't exist.

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Hairistotle

yeah cuz it's a fuckin trip
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Hairistotle

bro
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Hairistotle

Garioshi posted...

The Last Jedi > Rogue One > Empire Strikes Back

buh
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Hairistotle

youre lost broh
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Hairistotle

tbh i have no idea why they twirl them so much. i get that plenty of people find it cool but idk what's supposed to be cool about it
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Hairistotle

i see, sounds like it could be fun. most ive ever been in a discord group with was like 7 people
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Hairistotle

the best part of the mustafar fight is obi wans acting by far. that dude put the prequels on his back imo
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Hairistotle

the first two times i ate shrooms were awesome. the third time i was extremely depressed, and the trip was hell itself
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Hairistotle

lol i think i just don't know what discord is
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Hairistotle

RieTakahash posted...

https://www.mindful.org/mindfulness-how-to-do-it/

Real talk, helped me with a lot of things and it's so easy.

i'll tab this and check it out during my wake up routine. gave it a quick skim and seems easy enough to try

-Cipher- posted...

It is the new skype

I said i was using it to shitpost lol

like, shitposting to your friend?
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Hairistotle

i thought that guy was an Awesome alt?
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Hairistotle

Flockaveli posted...

I got these Zen Magnets that I like to play with

https://zenmagnets.com/

ok these seem awesome

-Cipher- posted...

>bed
>laptop
>headphones
>volume super low
>anime intros
>discord

commence the shitposting

my bed is less comfortable than the floor, i don't have a laptop, i dont watch anime, and i thought discord was basically just the new skype. there's stuff besides chatting on there?

but if that's your go-to calm down strat and it works, good for you man. it's hard to find a good cool-off routine so if you've got a working method hang onto that shit
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Hairistotle

married and kids sounds like the opposite of winning at life. the other stuff seems good
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Hairistotle

Guide posted...

There's a square mile of unadulterated forest smack dab in the middle of my city. I go in there and close my eyes sometimes.

that's always very nice for me too. havent done something like that in ages
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Hairistotle

weed helped me quit alcohol. now that im no longer a textbook alcoholic i too think it sucks. shit's only good for headaches and heartburn
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Hairistotle

R1masher posted...

Did you punch a hole in your wall and spackle it just to prove youre angry

no, i'm not sure what the issue was with the wall. this used to be my brothers room til i moved out, then he took up my old room so that's why im in here now
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Hairistotle

thanks. I'll have to change the water out but it's easy to take apart so nbd. And the only sound I hear is the running water - the pump itself is quiet as long as it's submerged
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Hairistotle

It's not on my desk yet since I gotta clear it off
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Hairistotle

Makes nice background noise. I'm going to replace netflix with this fountain for a week and see if it does anything for me. What are some other minor things that might contribute to a calm mood?
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Hairistotle

way to go bro, excellent progress
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Hairistotle

i have a pretty robust catalogue of drawings if i do say so myself
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Hairistotle