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Congrats, people normally tell people after the 12 week scan

Yeah pretty much. When things happen that should elicit an emotional response, I skip that part and go straight to focusing on fixing the problem (if it's a negative thing), and get irritated when people aren't focused on the solution.

Idk see what happens I guess. Being like this has also made me really good at my job and I am always in control of my actions which I think is a positive thing. Well, until I drink, anyway. When I drink, I can't stop, and just drink til I can't remember anything lol

Lost_All_Senses posted...

Therapy is cool if you like talking to people. Just don't be shy about showing your personality if you can help it. The more open you are the better odds they might say something that resonates for you.

Well I really need the therapist to dig out what my trauma is, if any, to work out why I'm like this. I can't really talk about feelings, I don't know how to describe them. Or as I said to my wife the other week: "I don't feel, I think".

Yeah I have a therapist lined up for a month's time as well to go for it. My doctor said based off what I told him I need therapy for 2 years and medication for 6 months minimum

And yeah I just feel so fucking out of it, like I'm half asleep all the time hahah. It's a nice feeling in some ways but a bit weird others

_Krave_ posted...

How's the sexual health after the cocktail of meds?

So far so good but yeah apparently the Sertraline can affect it in the sense it delays finishing for men, but the offset is you're in a better mood so you want sex more? So if could be win win.

Other men get straight up ED so yeah we'll see how we go.

I did my DASS21 form yesterday and scored extremely severe depression, extremely severe anxiety and severe stress so I'll see what he says about the meds.

And yeah, I should've done this 10 years ago lol but I just ignored it and treated myself with alcohol

Thanks all

Despised posted...

Hell yeah, Im a few months into medication for massive general anxiety disorder, my day to day is basically fight or flight for 29 years

im on 100mg setraline and x amount of Wellbutrin I dont have it next to me

they also gave me hydroxyzine for evening stress or sleep help if needed

How long did the sertraline take to work/what does it feel like? Right now I feel like it's the valium that's really knocking me around more than anything, and the propranolol helps with the physical symptoms (shaking/sweating/jittering etc)

Started on 100mg sertraline, 20mg diazepam and 80mg propranolol daily. It's been 5 days, the medication makes me feel so out of it. But the tightness in my chest and knot in the stomach have already dissipated and I feel generally better, although as said I just feel constantly out of it all the time.

Psychologist is beginning next month (they're all 5 months out).

I've known that I've had this for a good 15+ years but yeah, never done anything about it and just ignored it, but the last month something has made it feel a lot worse. Especially now that I have an 8 month old, decided to do something about it.

/blogfaqs

The medication I've been taking for a few days has really helped. It's mostly the valium to actually relax me but yeah, definitely helping. I feel stoned most of the time

Grats smackems

J03can posted...

I was mostly on RI at first but since 2005

CE was better when RI was the bigger board

I mean, I "can" drink, but drinking on zoloft and valium fucks you up even more, and with a baby in the house that's not a good idea

on CE, 17 years

on GameFAQs, 19 years

So I got diagnosed with depression yesterday. I knew I had it, I've known since I was a teenager (32 now), just never did anything about it in that toxic masculinity sort of way.

Got a psychologist lined up, and started on Zoloft, diazepam and propranolol.

I've always been able to manage it and my anxiety pretty well. Sometimes the anxiety physical symptoms flared up and I'd go get a diazepam script to just deal with them and they'd go back to normal after a couple weeks, but the last few weeks have been really bad and the mental symptoms are the worst they've ever been. So yeah, decided to actually do something about it.

Not sure what caused it, I don't think I had any trauma that would cause it, although I don't really remember my childhood much, so I've got no doubt that it was probably my parents in some way (not that they would've ever MEANT it, they were never abusive at all), but I honestly have no idea, I need a psychologist to drag it out of me, no doubt. The doctor after 20min of listening to me actually open up (which turned into a bit of a rambling word vomit, kind of like this post) was just like O_O and said it'll be 2 years psychology, 6 months medication MINIMUM.

So, yeah. Nothing about me has changed, it's how I've always been, just actually gonna do something about it, or try.

So I'm not allowed to drink (much) or do anything else "fun".

/blogfaqs

gunplagirl posted...

No, you definitely feel and you probably have tons of trauma and personal hangups to address before you will allow yourself to experience what you're feeling.

Or maybe you really don't which would be a form of sociopathy but that's also able to be treated to some extent by allowing yourself to unpack your traumas.

Edit: and to clarify, no, I don't demonize mental health issues, lord knows how many I have and how many my friends have. I'm well aware of enough of them to know though that someone who says they don't feel isn't telling the truth in most cases.

Maybe, but its also what makes me, me. Or a part of it. What if I unpack all that shit and I don't like it, or my wife doesn't?

Switch hitting in baseball blows my mind

I grew up playing cricket (Australian), and I'm right handed, and if I tried to bat left handed it'd be like a baby elephant trying to bat

Although weirdly enough I am a good left handed table tennis player, particularly on service. Not normal tennis though

Foppe posted...

I was ambidextrous when I started elementary school.
I used a pen in each hand and used both at the same time when I wrote.
One day my teacher saw this and stopped the class, having a long explanation that we are either right- or left-handed, and that left-handed have "something wrong with their brains".
I felt so ashamed that the teacher had stopped the class because of me and I didnt want to have something wrong with my brain so I forced myself to be righthanded.

That's based af to be able to not just use both hands but at the same time

DocDelicious posted...

That's textbook depression.
Depression doesn't mean you're sad all the time and your feefees hurt, it means you're incapable of feeling extreme emotions.

I feel no emotions. I described it to my wife the other day as such:

"I don't feel, I think"

I mean, I guess, but I remember my grandmother dying who was the matriarch of our whole extended family and everyone was just devastated and I was like... yeah this sucks but I mean... I'm fine? I feel nothing

Adderall and depression sounds like a weird mix. Isn't adderall from ADHD/ADD? Helps you focus.

Honestly, I have an extremely addictive personality. If I wasn't married or had a son, I would've been on the streets as a drug/drinking/gambling addict a long, long time ago.

I rarely abuse drugs anymore, have barely drank since my son was born, and cut back the gambling in a huge way (still in profit for the year though woohoo). But damn, the urges to just cut loose are always, always there. As I said though, I control myself, not my urges or thoughts control me.

Maybe that's why I feel depressed and anxious. I badly want to do things, self-destructive things, but I don't allow myself to because they're wrong, and I have a son now who I need to set an example for.

Nobody knows any of this btw. I fight this battle in my own mind. As I said, 95% of the time I'm winning and it's not even an issue. Rarely, it becomes a bit overwhelming. But importantly, I never, ever, ever actually act on these thoughts.

HoF for weirdest sportsperson alive maybe

I always play healers

What if I'm sitting at my families house and they're all crying because a relative died and I'm just sitting there feeling nothing and not crying, or if anything, slightly bored

It's been 2 fucking years

Just wait for the PS6 tbh

Oh yeah, like I'm definitely not a risk to myself or others for certain. I control my mental issues - they don't control me. Actions are more important than feelings and thoughts to myself, so I can battle on through or whatever.

Toxic masculinity, probably, but I grew up in a small country town of 10,000 people and also at the local football club, so it's burned into me. I know it's wrong, but it's a part of who I am.

But yeah, maybe I can use it to score some more sweet, sweet diazepam. Otherwise, back to drinking it is.

Man, I feel supremely depressed today. No real reason, just one of those days.

I do have some pretty severe anxiety (diagnosed), but it's mainly the physical symptoms that manifest every now and then - mentally I have it under control 100%, but the physical symptoms I can't control.

I have not been diagnosed with depression but have no doubt in my mind that I have it. Again, it doesn't control me, I live a normal life, but I know that the way I think and "feel" about things isn't right (I put feel in quotation marks because I don't actually feel anything, ever. I "think", I don't "feel" - I can't actually describe feelings).

Anyway, 95% of the time I'm unaffected, 4% of the time the physical anxiety symptoms manifest (which is why I have a diazepam prescription), but the 1% I just have a wave of depression for a day or two. Currently in the midst of it right now, and it sucks.

Ah well. I'll be fine by the weekend. /blogfaqs

a-c-a-b posted...

I've always been a lefty.

Right hand was for turning the page, or holding the tv remote, or controlling the mouse, or holding the phone.

Holy fuck, I'm old.

Same. 100% same.

Smackems posted...

I'm gonna go do sex

Congrats, it's been a few months for me since the baby arrived. Sleep > sex

hoo boy am i stoned

traveling interstate for work, first night away from the baby since he's been born (7 and a half months). absolutely stoned out of my brain on diazepam in the hotel room rn

a-c-a-b posted...

@TreyFlowers

I just found out there's a 4th book in the John Dies at the End series coming out in Oct.

It's called If This Book Exists, You're in the Wrong Universe: A Novel.

Although it looks like it's being released under the authors real name, Jason Pargin, and not his pseudonym David Wong.

I'm super excited for this. I love everything I've read from him.

I didn't know, awesome. Can't wait @a-c-a-b

I really should read them all again

This was made 8 hours ago. Now it's another 10mg diazepam and half a bottle of wine

Flockaveli posted...

What were you taking before diazepam.

Alcohol

stress, caffeine, fatigue

happens aaaaalllllll the time to me ever since I was a teenager

Ah yes, the circle of life

Feels good man

MabusIncarnate posted...

Hows Pia and baby?

Baby is crawling now and keeps playing with Pia's toys and chasing her around which she is not a fan of, but she still loves him, gives him licks and lays next to him

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/9/2/1/AAeIGpAADd55.jpg

Got a work function tonight, I'm getting actual drunk for the first time this year and going to the casino

what games will it play

The X Dawg posted...

No it wasn't. That's an abnormal looking dude.

Sure, but a normal looking mass shooter

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/2/9/3/AAeIGpAADak9.jpg

yeah that's about what I expected

Did you take your child to an underwater weighing test?

6 and a half months

My son started crawling. Crazy how fast it's gone

Next question, are the majority of cooktops/stoves gas in America? As I said in another post I've never had a gas cooktop. In fact I have never had any gas connection to my places, it's only been electric. Electric stovetops, heating, etc.

WaterLink posted...

Like what? Just interested. I already have too many kitchen gadgets that I struggle with storage space as it is. The last thing I need is another one lol

Make oats, sterilized water for my baby, instant noodles/ramen, steaming water for sinus treatment, boiling water for unclogging drains...

I have apparently found the reason

US electricity to homes is 110V. In Australia and Europe it's 230V. So electric Kettles basically take so much longer to actually boil that the gas stove might actually be faster.

I guess. I haven't ever lived with a gas stove since moving out of home. All my stoves have been electric.

A_Good_Boy posted...

Because we're predominately a coffee culture and not a tea culture.

Australian here, and same, coffee > tea but every house has a kettle for things other than tea

Why is the stove/microwave used for heating water?

Hornswoggled posted...

I'm just saying that, despite the Roe V Wade thing, it's not religion that's really making everybody miserable. It's that the government and corporations are increasingly making slave labor out of the public.

I'd say the priests who touch little boys are also making people miserable

Kloe_Rinz posted...

even 1% christianity is too high. that shit needs to die out ASAP

Give us another few decades, we'll get there