inloveanddeath0 posted...
I guess I need to work through trauma that I don't want to
That's one thing I feel like having a therapist was good for personally. I wish I had better luck, but honestly I had to go through like 5 of them before I found one that at least seemed like they wanted to try. But once I got one that was actually trying I noticed enough progress to eventually move on from it after I felt like I was able to address what needed to be addressed.