@Kombucha Brian

Definitely on par with the sound of that era, though I hadn't heard this particular band. How have you been?

Ups and downs currently down but the future still seems bright

That's good to hear for sure, about the future. I'm still pretty excited about the future at the moment. Planning on moving again soon but this time I'll have a network already and won't be starting from scratch. I had some trouble with my mental health a few years ago and now I'm on a med that works well for my condition. Also went through like a year of therapy, but things are better now than they've been in a long time all things considered.

Anyways hope the down passes for you soon!

Therapy was beneficial for awhile on me plus upping my meds but alcohol is the main culprit that spawned from my childhood and teen trauma unfortunately

That's unfortunate but understandable on the alcohol. Do you abstain from drinking these days?

I had stopped drinking for 2 years and some change, but started again recently (in moderation) because I found that on my current med I wasn't up and down while drinking, instead I'd just get a buzz and maybe get tired after a while. It also isn't one of those meds where you can't drink at all on it. I also don't feel the urge to go overboard anymore, but that may be more related to the therapy.

I've been in inpatient services 4 times but I relapsed again recently and am not sure what really will work for me

Yeah I have a friend that just got out of one of those programs. The whole program lasted about a month and they're transitioning him back with more support than he had before, so hopefully it works out. I think it was his second time in unless I'm mistaken, but the first time around it was a shorter stint. I could see how it would get a bit like, exactly what will work if you've been in and out of those and they still haven't stuck.

Hopefully you find something that works.

I guess I need to work through trauma that I don't want to