Do you cope with depression / suicidal ideations, now or in the past?

Just curious about it going by a post someone made elsewhere.

You're not obligated to go into detail about anything if you don't want to. Just curious.

Yes to both

Not since coming out

No to both thankfully.

hollow_shrine posted...

Not since coming out

Of the closet you mean? I know that's been eating at me personally for a while now. Out to friends online at least.

Distraction

yeah for like 10 years

I've just kinda decided it's part of who I am so I've gotten used to it

Occasionally. It has a tendency to come unexpectedly, and in waves, some more fierce than others.

i just like to get reall low for a week

then snap out of it

I can't answer that in detail without getting on suspension or even banned, but i have suicidal thoughts a lot. If it was easy to buy a gun here, i would dead already.

Not anymore, generally. I kind of stopped at the planning stages, like "what would hurt the least" or "the best time to get away with it", but I've always managed to steer things back because of how many lives I'd ruin in one fell swoop. "Not hurting those I care about" was a big motivational tool for me. I got into the habit of just telling people I wasn't feeling like myself while lucid and to just keep their eyes open for unnatural behaviour. It's been roughly 10 years since I was at genuine risk, I think, but every once in a great while I'll have creeping thoughts that I have to suppress or confront.

I have the luxury of a good support base at home though, including a family doctor that treats me like a personal mission. I credit him most with turning my life around to the extent I have. Not everyone has those things.

I deal with depression a lot, but the only time I had suicidal thoughts was ironically when I was on antidepressants.

TheCyborgNinja posted...

I have the luxury of a good support base at home though, including a family doctor that treats me like a personal mission. I credit him most with turning my life around to the extent I have. Not everyone has those things.

Yeah, I get that entirely, about having a good support base. Once I ditched all of my toxic af friends and got new, supportive ones - and got over the loneliness I began to feel - my mood began to boost a lot. I've had maybe two bad depressive spells all semester as a result - which is rather few for me - and nothing suicidal with them. Complete 180 from last semester.

yes. i made a few half-hearted attempts, but i don't think i'm very likely to actually do it.

Eevee-Trainer posted...

TheCyborgNinja posted...

I have the luxury of a good support base at home though, including a family doctor that treats me like a personal mission. I credit him most with turning my life around to the extent I have. Not everyone has those things.

Yeah, I get that entirely, about having a good support base. Once I ditched all of my toxic af friends and got new, supportive ones - and got over the loneliness I began to feel - my mood began to boost a lot. I've had maybe two bad depressive spells all semester as a result - which is rather few for me - and nothing suicidal with them. Complete 180 from last semester.

With me, I was always good at filtering out the bad people and keeping a good group around me, and I've always had a strong bond with my parents (though my mom, despite helpful intentions, could cause more harm than good sometimes). My life wasn't the problem, it's a chemical imbalance and a few life-threatening situations as a young child that put me here. I avoid drama like the plague though, because I tend to take on the weight of the world pretty easily otherwise (for the sake of clarification, I don't consider a legitimate problem drama, I just mean trolls or people causing intentional damage or being passive aggressive). I have a dickish faade that I tend to run with, but when put to the test, I will usually try to help people out when I can.

I've been depressed and considered suicide, but I haven't tried to kill myself.