I've only uttered it once in front of others. It was in middle school and it was an argument with some kid. In an online game I had previously played some guy called a user the N word and I heard someone say "Why did he call you the N word?" I thought N word must be some offensive word like calling someone a bitch or motherfucker or something. It wasn't until after I called this kid that word that I found out it had a racial connotation and man I felt terrible.
Going to be honest here, I don't use the word and I judge every single person who does as an idiot. Whether it is the hard 'r' or the 'a' version....I still think they are idiots.
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