RJP_X posted...
its crazy, always loved cats but i feel awful most days and feel still depressed and painful even when cuddling with one, hugging them, petting them, it sucks it feels like i don't love them even though i know i do. i worry about this with human's too, not sure if i really love humans like at all. i feel like i may be incapable of love, and it really hurts. i don't know if that can be helped at this point. :'c
at times i want a BF myself, but not sure if i am relationship worthy. the idea of more master/slave relationship far outweigh's interest in vanilla. i'm worried that's hardwired, since the fantasy has been years running. maybe it'd change if i met people, i am unfamiliar with people tbh.
Your pets probably know. They can usually sense what youre feeling And I remember you from the other board/topic. You could probably find someone whos into that sort of relationship. Or even ask a partner you find if they would be interesting in trying it out with you. Even if not 24/7 But without being you, I cant tell you exactly how to be happy. I can only offer suggestions based on things I know about you from what you tell us