RedJackson posted... That's probably one of the hardest things to quit man so kudos - ever notice how a junkie might not have money but they always have cigarettes? Yeah. It's that tough.
I 'quit' and now I smoke a vape - my body not only got addicted to nicotine, it wants to feel me bringing up my arm and drawing on something.
You live your life as it comes man, there are no right ways or wrong ways although having it shoved in your face will constantly remind you of what you don't have. I live with some regret over my life - in fact, I was thinking about it for awhile last night trying to sleep and the feeling overwhelmed me. I could no longer bear it and realized that it sucks to be in a hole that doesn't seem to change.. but you have to just continue to walk in that direction of freedom man and the second you feel happy or excited you need to stoke that fire as best as you can. Get on that ****ing train and just one-way to somewhere and not look back anymore. Ride that rollercoaster even if you're afraid because by the time you know it you will be strapped in and half way up and all you can feel is that nervousness and feeling of being scared to death as you get towards the peak.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DkytJLoxGmQ
I feel like that's what I have been doing... Doing my best to ride on progress. It started with quitting cigarettes because they were very obviously worsening my stomach problems... My stomach problems got a little better and I started gaining weight FINALLY, but I was eating trash food that ended up fucking with my stomach further. Cleaned up my diet and lost all my gainz.
I've since managed to put on 10 pounds in 2 months by tuning my cleaner diet and keep gaining.. So that's something to be happy about.
Weed was once a crutch that eventually started giving me nothing but issues with my panic disorder and GAD. So it was easy to give up once I noticed that my panic attacks virtually disappeared and my GAD significantly lessened.
Alcohol was just terrible for my stomach... It's been rough being completely sober off everything because it was my main source of entertainment. I'm finding it difficult to enjoy hobbies or even being around other people without pot and alcohol. The money saved certainly is nice though, and maybe when I can finally fix my teeth and pay off my debts I can start affording things that will enrich my life.
I just gotta decide on my next step and follow through with it. It's terrifying but it's what I gotta do.
Hell yeah Doobie Brothers.
https://youtu.be/gGgbMdMUSs8Not *technically* Doobie Brothers, but still this song applies to both of us I'd say. Kenny Loggins' version is great too.
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