Poll of the Day > PotD, it is the end of 2020; How are you doing?

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It's been a long year, a ton of things have happened. How are you? Have any plans or hopes for the new year?

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Pretty good. Going to be starting my next semester at school. Another therapist at my internship will be transferring his high-school students to me after the break which is great. I've always wanted to work with high-school kids. Other than that, it's been a full year that I've been living with my girlfriend in our new apartment and we are both very happy. I do miss being able to go out and socialize more without the pandemic. How about you?

At the moment, I'm doing really well. The hear has been a whirlwind though full of ups and downs.

-Wife got pregnant in January
-Job became work from home in march
-Was laid off from job in April (like a week after getting a raise too)
-Lease was up at the end April and couldn't extend lease.
-Decided to move back to oregon; used savings to buy farm
-moved into short term rental because farm needed a place to live
-Spent a couple months rebuilding a run down old house into our new family home
-During this time, rescued a kitten
-during my home rebuilding process, wife built a gigantic garden, and we fixed up an old chicken coop to have chickens and quail
-in roughly June, we were able to move onto our farm
-End of July got a new job; Fully remote
-Kitten passed away :(
-In September, giant wildfires ravaged the area. Came only 3 miles away from the farm.
-Daughter was born in October
-Spent October and November and the start of December fairly sleep deprived due to baby
-End of December, finally starting to feel like I'm getting a break.

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I died 2020 times this year

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CarefreeDude posted...

How are you?

I hate my life because finding work is difficult for someone like me. I'm sick of sifting through hundreds of job descriptions that only remind me that I have little to no marketable skills or qualifications. I don't know what I want to do next. I do not know where I want to go. I do not know what the point of anything I do is. I have complained about this far too many times in the past year and a half. Today will be the one-year anniversary of the day I quit that job of working as a data assistant at some homeless shelter. I felt like there was virtually no point to me staying there because it did not seem to lead anywhere. Now, I'm nowhere, career-wise, with a four-month-long gap in employment and little hope of finding out what I want to do next. I'm too exhausted mentally and physically to return to school for an education that might not even contribute to a career I've not even figured out yet. I'm getting sick and tired of the lot around me suggesting I return to school in spite of the reason provided thus. In short, it's not been a good year. I've considered making my New Year's resolution not making any rash and/or idiotic decisions like quitting a job without another lined up, like I have exactly one year ago. But I hardly think it's going to matter. I'm too unemployable to follow through with that, anyway.
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CarefreeDude posted...

At the moment, I'm doing really well. The hear has been a whirlwind though full of ups and downs.

-Wife got pregnant in January
-Job became work from home in march
-Was laid off from job in April (like a week after getting a raise too)
-Lease was up at the end April and couldn't extend lease.
-Decided to move back to oregon; used savings to buy farm
-moved into short term rental because farm needed a place to live
-Spent a couple months rebuilding a run down old house into our new family home
-During this time, rescued a kitten
-during my home rebuilding process, wife built a gigantic garden, and we fixed up an old chicken coop to have chickens and quail
-in roughly June, we were able to move onto our farm
-End of July got a new job; Fully remote
-Kitten passed away :(
-In September, giant wildfires ravaged the area. Came only 3 miles away from the farm.
-Daughter was born in October
-Spent October and November and the start of December fairly sleep deprived due to baby
-End of December, finally starting to feel like I'm getting a break.

Damn, you had an eventful year. Sorry about your kitten. :( Congrats on having a daughter! Eventually I want a little girl too. Maybe in a couple of years.

Extremely bored as of late, but otherwise satisfied with my life.
When April rolls around I will have probably gone 2 years without a raise, but also 2 years as a Senior Software Engineer.

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Online teaching is pretty horrible, but it's better now than it was in the spring. I'm just glad I survived the first rounds of education cuts from Alberta's very conservative government. 2021 will probably be every bit as bad.

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EclairReturns posted...

I hate my life because finding work is difficult for someone like me. I'm sick of sifting through hundreds of job descriptions that only remind me that I have little to no marketable skills or qualifications. I don't know what I want to do next. I do not know where I want to go. I do not know what the point of anything I do is. I have complained about this far too many times in the past year and a half. Today will be the one-year anniversary of the day I quit that job of working as a data assistant at some homeless shelter. I felt like there was virtually no point to me staying there because it did not seem to lead anywhere. Now, I'm nowhere, career-wise, with a four-month-long gap in employment and little hope of finding out what I want to do next. I'm too exhausted mentally and physically to return to school for an education that might not even contribute to a career I've not even figured out yet. I'm getting sick and tired of the lot around me suggesting I return to school in spite of the reason provided thus. In short, it's not been a good year. I've considered making my New Year's resolution not making any rash and/or idiotic decisions like quitting a job without another lined up, like I have exactly one year ago. But I hardly think it's going to matter. I'm too unemployable to follow through with that, anyway.

Sounds rough. What do you usually do during the day? Anything that brings you any happiness or at least entertainment?

GunslingerGunsl posted...

Anything that brings you any happiness

No.
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EclairReturns posted...

No.

Any interest in therapy? I always feel weird asking this for some reason.

GunslingerGunsl posted...

therapy

I've been doing that for a little bit over a year, now.
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EclairReturns posted...

I've been doing that for a little bit over a year, now.

Glad to hear you're trying something. I hope things work out for you, good sir.

I'm great. My girlfriend and cats make me happy. I have one in my lap now (a cat not a gf). I have my health and a good career. Alls good in the hood

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This year has easily been the worst year of my life due to illness. So much time spent convulsing and terrified on the edge of death. Fortunately I guess, the worst of it was earlier in the year. Spent what is easily the worst day of my life in the mental ward at the hospital cause I had a bad reaction that made me feel suicidal to eating...I think it was a piece of lettuce. I didn't have a diagnoses at the time so the hospital wouldn't allow my mom to bring the only food I can eat which I eat every 3 hours. Instead I was starved for and kept awake in that hellhole for 36 hours at which point they put me an ambulance and brought me to a mental health care place.

I was so sick and miserable and my heart was having all kinds of palpitations and they were saying it was just anxiety (which I have medical tests proving it wasn't but that came later). I thought I was gonna be stuck there and die but fortunately the I managed to bullshit my way through talking to the psychiatrist there and he said he thought they made a mistake and that I was free to go.

I was mentally gone at this point having been starved or sleep deprived for so long but I somehow managed to keep it together until my mom picked me up. My heart hurt so bad for days afterwards. When I was in the hospital and already losing my mind from the symptoms and starvation I heard someone in another room nearby die and then a few minutes later the persons mother came in... The sounds she made just gutted me. If there is a hell, it's like that for sure. It did steel my resolve though. I can never let my mother be that person.

Pretty sure I now have bad PTSD from a lot of these experiences. They also almost killed me at the hospital back in june. I had a bad reaction to lactate ringer and managed to shut it off myself before the convulsing and loss of control got too bad but one of the nurses without telling anyone turned it back on.

Things were getting better after that though. I got not one but 3 diagnoses which may explain my problems and was feeling a fair bit better. Then, about a week into starting medication that could cure me, I got salmonella somehow and nearly died. My liver was just on the verge of failing, I was too nauseous to take any meds including the ones I was relying on and I lost more weight down to my current all time low of 117 lbs (I'm 6 ft tall male). My body managed to somehow beat the salmonlla at the last moment (my white cell and platelet counts were dangerously low) and I've recovered a fair bit since then. I just started a new medicine 2 days ago that I'm hopeful will help.

It's been 19 months since I got this illness suddenly one day and I just want my life back again. Like, at least health enough to watch anime and play video games while I recover. If I get a bit healthier theres two surgeries I need. One is getting my gallbladder removed (it has a stone and poor function before that). That might make a big difference or no difference. Then, my spine is also unstable and theres an experimental surgery to get that could help that. Generally though you need to get it 2-4 times before it makes a huge difference.

I'm pretty hopeful for 2021. In a lot of ways I feel like I've made it through the worst of it surviving the first half of the year and then the infection. Really hoping this medication and the gallbladder surgery make large differences.

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CarefreeDude posted...

How are you?

in general good but due to the death of Jonathan Huber I'm currently still feeling sad.

Have any plans or hopes for the new year?

I have no plans but hope things improve.

CarefreeDude posted...

-Kitten passed away :(

Indeed after you accidentally ran over it.

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