Current Events > I wish I didn't fall for women who are bad for me.

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This girl has to know how much I care about her by now, but sometimes she ignores me, belittles me, lies to me, or doesn't take me seriously. But then other times we talk for hours and she really seems to like me.

It almost seems like she's got a split personality. I try to talk to her about how I feel and what our relationship even is, but she acts like I never even said anything. I don't want to be strung along by someone who isn't genuine, but I also don't want to be lonely again... I haven't been excited to talk to someone in a long time, and I feel like we've really connected, but... I dunno. Sometimes she's super talkative, and other times she's a complete clam.

I've been direct. I've told her how I feel and I've asked if I was wrong to put so much stock into whatever our relationship is, but she doesn't say anything. I've asked if I should reel it in and give her space, but she doesn't respond to that either.

I don't know why I like girls like this. Maybe it's like a challenge, or maybe I like danger, I don't know. I just want to impress her. I want to get through her shell and show her someone cares and she's not in it alone, but I just can't get a read on her. She's like a brick wall once things get personal.

Maybe she just doesn't know how to act, or doesn't know what to say, but I hate sitting around wondering if I fucked up.

Anyway, just venting, CE. It hurts to leave stuff like this in your head. Thanks for listening.
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