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Just got the call from family in the UK that my grandmother is seriously ill. Still waiting for the results to come back but they think it's bowel cancer. She's in her 90s so if it is, it's going to be terminal. She hasn't eaten in days and has lost 20lbs in just over a week so I doubt she has very long unless it's miraculously ulcers instead

My biggest fear when COVID restrictions started was that something like this would happen and I wouldn't be able to get home to visit them or even for the funeral. My grandfather died suddenly a couple of years after I emigrated and I hadn't been home in 2 years to visit due to work. I was devastated and I still feel guilty about it even now.

If my grandmother dies and I can't get back to see her before she does, I don't know what I'll do. I try to go home every year but the last time I was home was late 2018 since a lot of my family visited here in 2019. I told them I planned to come home as soon as COVID restrictions allowed me to and have been checking travel restrictions every 1-2 weeks. This just feels cruel and unfair even though I'm well aware others have it far worse than me.