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With all the drama that's been going on, it's time for some fuckin' truth. If this gets modded, so be it.

green butter is possibly the most toxic person I've ever met, and I'm tired of holding back on it. I don't give a shit if he thinks I'm talking shit about him behind him back. The previous confession about him leading men on then dumping them when he gets what he wants out of them is 100% accurate. He also has a massive victim complex. He will never see himself as being in the wrong, even while he goes around hurting people left and right. I've also recently cut him out of my life because frankly, he's become my trauma, and I can't deal with him being in my life anymore. I've been talking to green butter for a while before he and Drunkmuggle got together and remained friends with him after they got together. We started talking in January. Most of this time we were talking literally daily. After Drunkmuggle was super neglectful to him for the two months they were together, against my better judgement (because I liked and genuinely cared about him), I played the emotional boyfriend. Supported him when Drunkmuggle treated him like shit, comforted him, cheered him up, whatever. Granted, I fucked up a bunch myself even up until the end, not going to lie. I'll take my blame and responsibility for those actions. A lot of it had to do with Drunkmuggle treating me like garbage (knowingly or unknowingly) after knowing him for years from the CE tinychat, with Green butter being related. This happened specifically after I said I would support the two of them, which I did unbiasedly. However, since we were all friends, I would always update him on what's going on. This isnt a Drunkmuggle post, though.

When they broke up (and not going to lie, even slightly before the breakup), he began to latch onto me, told me that he loved me, encouraged me to fall in love with him, which I sadly ended up doing around that point, with the interest suddenly being mutual. Also against my better judgement. He acted like we were dating in the Sanctuary discord. We were basically nondating, even if he said that he was "confused about him breakup" with Drunkmuggle. Apparently you can still love the people that abuse and enable you. After a bit of this, he began to aggressively flirt with other people in the Sanctuary discord. Immediately after making it look like we were dating to everyone. Before, during, and after this, we had talked about it a couple times but he refused to be clear about what he wanted. This went on for a few days of back and forth between us.

Eventually we mutually agreed to be friends because according to him us being together would be "unhealthy", which I was okay with despite having lingering romantic feelings over because I admired him drive and passion for nursing among other things. We agreed to be more mindful of each other and considerate of each others feelings, since in an effort to move on from him, I had also jokingly flirted in the Sanctcord a bit. But him outrage about that is more based in a perceived hypocrisy on my part than actually being bothered by it. And, to be honest, he did genuinely improve for a while there, but it wasnt what he wanted I think. I wanted him to become the most emotionally healthy, independent person he could. Because he wasn't. Which for reasons I'll describe later, he clearly doesn't want, even if at the time he said he did. He would also go on to say that he still really liked me in that way for a while.

I was always up front and honest with him. Even my negative points. At some points I would be, for the most part, the only person he'd seriously talk with. When he and t_paynes_ghost started talking, he would show me screenshots about what they're talking about.
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