That's gotta be a "no". I would hate to hurt others just to live, to say nothing of the possibility of being drawn into the petty drama of other, centuries-older vampires who're extremely goddamned bored and are playing games I don't even know exist.
The only correct answer is Julia's: run off to New Carthage with your hot, supportive GF.
"Love it real, love it fake; like the lines on my face
Everything in its right place." - Caroline Rose, "Everything in its Right Place"