i feel like i've always known i was gay since pre-school because i would get crushes on my male teachers. i've never had any romantic feelings towards any girl and never pretended to. i don't think i was ever really uncomfortable with being gay but being a
disabled
gay still worries me a lot due to job prospects, not feeling like a burden to my future partner, having my already-small dating scene made smaller due to ableism (surprisingly still common)
i feel like i get infatuated by men really easily, even as i approach 30. there's probably some psychological reason i get attached to people so quickly.