@Bullet_Wing
@Heartomaton
@Wandering__Hero
(A few others that I forgot)
Even though I'm basically certain you are all just fishing for drama, I'm sick of you or your alts or whoever trying to derail topics I'm in, so I'm going to respond once and then move the fuck on:
The entire premise of that community was that it was not a serious community, it was competitive edgelords for attention, and it was understood that every post was not serious. I would have not participated otherwise. That many years ago my brother had very recently killed himself, I had severe chronic depression, and crippling social anxiety. I never never never never never never never wanted to do anything wrong socially, morally, or otherwise, so rather than risk doing anything wrong IRL I stayed in the safety of internet interaction and played along with a community which insisted "none of this is serious, this is all just ephemeral screwing around and edgy jokes". Most everybody played by those rules and as a kinda anything goes place it was disarming for somebody with such severe anxiety. But it had a flipside where if you wanted social engagement you had to say outrageous shit. It wasn't the place for authenticity, it was at its best a haven for irreverence. And in some moments in that way, it wasn't that bad. Would I, in my severely depressed and mentally unwell state, have been tons better served with real friends or emotional support from my family or serious mental health help from professionals? Absolutely! Did I have that? NOPE! I was extremely miserable and alone, and I had one major social outlet which was this place where nothing was serious. And it was all pretend on computers, so what's the harm, right? It was like playing cards against humanity, everybody understood it wasn't in any way serious.
Not in my wildest dreams did I think anybody was taking anything seriously, if I did I wouldn't have said anything then. And not in my wildest wildest dreams did I think that a handful of the people at that time who were saying n-words and also laughing as hey told depressed people to self-harm would then later start trying to harass some others off-site for over a decade. And not in my wildest wildest wildest wildest wildest wildest dreams did I think that these people who back then were throwing around racial slurs, telling depressed people to self-harm, and just being recreationally cruel would harass for over a decade across websites, AND be empowered by complete strangers on this site who have nothing to do with any of it, but regardless keep trying to start something as if I'm not a human with feelings.
To the people I @'d (and the ones I forgot who are also spamming this): You are joining a few sad individuals in an over a decade old harassment campaign over a severely depressed recently traumatized mildly ASD's kid attempts to fit in with a bunch of edgelords because I thought we were all playing pretend. It's literally taking somebody's "Cards against humanity" answers from over 10 years ago and taking them seriously in the modern day to try to character assassinate them. It's messed up. It's absurd. And what's more is that you either don't know what you are doing or don't care. You seem to be just fishing for drama, and I guess you tell yourselves they aren't doing anything wrong by participating in this harassment campaign.
But you are. It is just a generally shitty thing to do, and furthermore, I don't know if you noticed, but I don't have a fucking time machine, so I don't know how you expect me to undo edgy statements from over a decade ago. You bring it up as if it defines my character now, but it didn't even define my character then, because the whole premise of the community was that none of it was serious. You want me to renounce it? Sure! I renounce it now, I renounced it then by virtue of me not being ever serious in the first place. It's stupid pretend edgelord shit from over a decade ago, and I'd really appreciate it if you stopped harassing me with it.
I'll be honest though, I doubt any of the people spamming it will change your ways, you seemingly don't care if it is bs or if it causes me emotional distress, that's probably part of the fun, I guess.
But at least now I've addressed it, I've explicitly moved on, and so future harassment attempts will be even more overtly transparent, and maybe some itty bitty part of your conscience might make you take pause and dial it back one fucking iota, because NGL, it is really getting old.
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PS: If you bring it up again in any random topics I will mark you and block you.
Also I'm not going to say anything further in this topic. I said my piece, I'm done with this subject for good.